#thsi again to me and it made me so mad I had to write a post BUT I didn’t say anything snarky to him nc he’s just trying to be supportive

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

I know I need to work on the fact that blind confidence in me pisses me off. I try not to react that way but my immediate thought to someone saying “I knew you’d pass/get the job/be fine” is to be annoyed that they’re not “considering all the variables” and thinking through the situation with enough depth and realism. I fully realize it’s me wanting the real possibility of failure to be acknowledged and for the actual positives and negatives to be considered (which can be one of my more annoying traits) when the other person is just trying to be supportive in a conversation. I’m making a mostly successful effort to stop myself and think “they’re using a stock phrase in this conversation-think about the intention not the words”. Which sometimes works but sometimes I’m in a bad mood and don’t want platitudes that feel as if my in-depth analysis of the reality of the situation is being ignored.

Like I have confidence in my ability to handle situations and succeed in things it’s just analyzed and measured confidence and I am always braced for the small possibility of failure.

[seoafin]

i was rereading chapter 5 of dog days are over and fuck man i just love it so much ik we are all excited for the smut but these chapters before are what make the smut all the more worth it!!! if it was just straight sex without building up their relationship and their dynamic it would fall so flat for me but the way you freaking write geto and his flat smiles and his measured tone of voice anytime he’s slightly displaced or wants to manipulate ripmc to stay longer or eat more food🥺🥺🥺🥺 my heart flutters u can rlly see the cult leader coming in my pookie and my heart starts hurting so muchhhhh have u felt like that when you read a rlly good fic? like ur heart is weightier than before and u can just feel it in ur chest and you’re so nervous but fluttery and geniunly fucking shy as hell too…..or do i just have heart problems omg. when geto asked ripmc if the food wasn’t tasty in front of the waitress to get ripmc to eat while he was ordering drinks my pussy fluttered when gojo said put it all on my card too omg MY MAN RIGHT THERE how do u think of scenes like that scenes that are just so fuckinh them like scenes that until you write them i wouldn’t even think about but then i read them and i’m like fuck yeah geto would not even just geto gojo too and his indiscernible looks i can literally visualize him sitting there with his glasses looking at you and i can feel the weight of his stareeeeew gojo asking for more kisses when yours and getos lasts a second longer i love them so much omg. especially when she’s all like guys let’s keep this a secret and they’re all like ……….fine🤨 JSJWKWKKS so pls take all the time in the world you need to not get to the smut i’ll love the smut but i love these kinda scenes even more. also take some time for yourself to decompress and relax!!! i just love the way ripmc fits seamlessly between the two so bad omg she’s literally their missing piece i’m gonna fucking sob. can i ask? is she gonna tell geto and gojo about the mission that went rlly bad? do they know already🧍🏻‍♀️? omg imagine if they find out nanami knew before them?? also do you think there’s anything ripmc could do to get them genuinely mad and angry cause i was thinking of gojos “you cheatin on me” which btw i literally could imagine him saying those exact words and it was teasing so it made me think do they actually care about cheating? like have they had actual fights about it before geto n gojo? and what would they do if like ugh thsi is so angsty i’m sorry i’m on my period🧍🏻‍♀️but how would they react if like ripmc cheated on them? like a kiss or smt? would they be hurt because their trust was broken or would they be hurt because they think ripmc is theirs? BTW THIS SO MAKES IT SOUND LIKE I CHEATED AND IM JUST SELF INSERTING AS RIPMC I SWEAR I JUST THINK ITS INTERESTING TO THINK ABOUT THE SADDEST OF SCENARIOS IF UR UNCOMFY ANSWERING FEEL FREE TO IGNORE PLS!!!!!! anywaysssss i rllly fucking love ur writing so much and i hope you’re having a blast in japan you deserve it❤️‍🩹 i’m so excited and proud for not being like scared to go after what u want u too omg❤️❤️

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THANK YOU!!!!! can I just say that I LOVE writing geto and his subtle cult leader tendencies in the poly au like YES gaslight gatekeep girlboss (but in moderation lmfao) It's really the small moments where you could think that yeah...this is a guy that totally went off the rails and started a cult lmfao...he keeps his manipulative tendencies but channels them into forcing ripmc to take care of herself and [redacted] he's so awful I love him truly!!!!!

niku also brought up stsg knowing spoiler alert......they know and they definitely aren't happy she talked about it with nanami instead of them. they wanted her to tell them of her own volition, so expect the mission to come back up again in a later chapter lol also for all of ripmc's many faults I genuinely think she can do no bad in their eyes. if she did something it's justified unless it's directly impacted her health as in she put herself in danger and got grievously injured. I can definitely see them getting actually upset and angry with her for that but if anything the repercussions are more like....ripmc being stuck in a room for a week and getting coddled to death until stsg deem it enough 😭

It's not that stsg care about cheating it's more the fact that they are very secure in their relationship with each other and aren't worried about it. gojo might occasionally be annoyed and even pissed when they're arguing about geto being popular but it's never that serious. on the other hand ripmc.... 😭😭 ripmc would never cheat on them and they know it but she's also the most likely to entertain flirtations without knowing someone is flirting with her. when stsg jokingly flirt with another person they're always in control of the situation. they know which lines shouldn't be crossed. they use it as a means to purposefully get the other jealous. sometimes they try to make ripmc jealous and it backfires! another thing is the fact that because the line between lover and friend is so blurred in regards to stsg she doesn't quite understand that there are certain things that only a "boyfriend" gets to do to her which further translates to her not having any sense of boundaries with other people just like she doesn't have any sense of boundaries with stsg. obviously stsg wouldn't be happy about that 💀 if ripmc kissed someone else they probably approached her and asked if they could and she just said yes bc she couldn't find a reason to say no dhjsnfjsndb anyway they'd be more peeved than anything and they'd make it a point to make sure nothing like that ever happens again [ominous]

ANYWAY yeahhhhhhhhh I just think about geto a disproportionate amount aka so much it's unhealthy I'm so obsessed with him

[kellanwrites]

Writing Journal number 3

Minor content warning: Character has a flashback and thalassophobia.

How did Corrin end up here? He knew exactly how he did, his fiancee, Merrick. Merrick had always wanted to take a cruise, and despite his better judgement, Corrin agreed to one, provided their cabin didn't have windows. Merrick Pouted but relented, only because the prices of those cabins was so much cheaper since everyone wanted an exterior suite. The room was fantastic, as good if not better than some of the more expensive suites, but because it had no port windows or balconies, no one wanted them.

Corrin's plan had been to spend his entire time in their cabin, not leaving. What he hadn't counted on was seasickness. Which was made worse by being inclosed in the windowless suit. So that's how he found himself sitting on the deck, as far from the edge as possible, sipping soda water while his fiancee frollicked, literally frolicked in the wave pool. Corrin shook his head when Merrick waved to him to join him. If he wanted to play in a wave pool there was a perfectly good one back home. Thunder cracked and lightening flashed and it was suddenly a mad dash to get inside.

Corrin avoided the edge of the ship as much as he could, but the only pathway back inside to the dining room or other indoor activities went right by the edge at one point. And now he was stuck, in a line to get back in as the rain poured down and the storm as everyone tried to file back inside. He tried to keep his eyes from looking over but someone accidentally slipped and fell into him, and pushed him to the railing. And his eyes fell on the water below.

the churning waves and rolling of the endless sea of blue below him took up his whole vision and suddenly he was back on that tiny raft after his parents yacht sank and they loaded him and his younger brother onto the only inflatable life raft. They floated in that raft for days, alone, worried if their parents had survived, knowing they had not and now Corrin was responsible for his younger brother. He could remember giving all his rations to his younger brother, because it was his job to make sure he lived. Just before they ran out of rations, they were saved, and it turned out their parents had lived. A part of the yacht has remained on the surface and the two clung to that until rescue.

he heard his name distantly and shook his head, the rescue had come they had been saved, but he could still remember floating in that raft, with nothing to see but blue all around.

"corrin!" his name is shouted again and he looked to see Merrick standing over him, concerned. "Corrin, it's ok, we're inside, and the boat is safe. You're safe."

Corrin did look around, confused how he ended up here, laying on one of the sofas in the indoor lounge. Merrick smiled softly, seeing the confusion. "when you started to flashback and panic, everyone cleared the way to get you inside." The smile fell and Merrick looked apologetic. "I'm sorry. I thought we could enjoy this, even with...well, I thought you'd be able to stay away from railing and that the weather would have been clear."

Corrin just smiled, he was exhausted, but he reached up and ran a hand through Merrick's hair. "It's all right," he said, "I agreed to thsi after all, of my own free will, because you wanted it so badly. And until this point I was actually enjoying myself." He looked a little worried when thunder boomed over head.

"It's just a small thunderstorm, Captain said we'd be through into clear skies in an hour or so. It's noting to worry about. There's a few activities running indoors, but I imagine you want to rest."

"Actually, I think I want to read in the library."

"but the library has--" Merrick started, and looked at me shocked.

"I used to love the water, you know? I wasn't always thalassophobic. I was almost starting to remember that before the storm. I'd like." Corrin took a deep breath. "I feel like I'm starting to reclaim what that incident stole from me. I can't promise I'll ever want to go on a cruise again, but maybe the beach?"

they both smiled.

[zuffer-weird-girl]

A Scenario where kai and his s/o have a really big fight He says some very hurtful things and she disappears for 3 days or something (she's at her grandparents in the hills) Ande the others are like oh shit are they gonna break up? Fluff ending tho ny heart can't handle too much angst

It feels great to write again, just got out from a writing block

"You're being irrational." He sighed in pure annoyance and rolling his eyes at his lover, whose scoffed and crossed her arms in disbelief at hearing his words.

"Am I? Or is it you that is so hard to stop being so damn arrogant for once?"

He let his pen go and hit his office's desk to send her a glare, clearly displeased by her choice of words. Normally, if it was anyone else, they would be quivering in fear at only one look of his; but this was (Y/n) whose he was talking with.

The girl was just as stubborn as him, and never once trembled neither widen her eyes in fear of him. Which caused at first for him to be extremely annoyed.

"Don't give me that look." She scowled "You know that you're in the wrong side this time."

"Sure." He scoffed sarcastically while returning his attention to his papers "Like ever argument that we have right? Oh, my bad." He send her one glare while arching his eyebrow up "You never once was right in neither of those, so what makes you think that this time is different?"

"Because it was wrong from you!" You said in exasperation "Just because a guy touched me asking for information you overhauled the poor man! Why?!"

"He was sick." He said through gritted teeth, after half of a hour of this nonsense he was getting way too impatient "Apologies if I was trying to prevent the same happening for you dearest." He said in venom sarcasm.

"Kai this is not even protecting, this is madness!" You exclaimed while his eyes grew darker and darker by the minutes it passed.

Half an hour later it passed with you two discussing and the words only got darker and offensive. His skin was already interrupting in hives while you at least tried to reason with him, but he was not having it.

"For crying out loud why can't you listen to me for once?!" You were almost ripping your hair out while he coldly stared at you, but the red spots growing on his skin showed you that he was just as fed up as you were.

"Because apparently I am dating a fucking idiot who can't even know when someone is sick or not." He said while glaring daggers in your eyes before he sighed more to himself "Why did I put myself so low to be with you?"

The moment those words left his mouth he immediately widened his eyes in realization before he looked at your hurt yet shock expression. He knew already all about your insecurities, he knew that sometimes you thought you were too little for him even if it was the exact opposite... yet he said those things.

"... (Y/n). I didn't meant that." He tried to extend his hand but you quickly took a step back away from him.

"Sorry." You said between gritted teeth as you tried to hold back the tears "But I don't want to hear it. Not anymore."

He didn't even blinked and you were already out of his office, even despite his shouts for you to come back, you didn't.

He growled out loud before propting down against his chair and resting his forehead on his gloved hand with a sigh.

You were just being childish. You knew already all about his personality and such. He just needed to give time for both of you to calm down to later sorta this thing out... maybe if he sended a precept to buy something for you would ease his issue a bit...

Returning to his work was a struggle since the only thing that sticked to his kind and made his heart clench in a horrible way was seing the hurt in your expression and the tears threating to escape from your lashes....

~

He growled in displeasure as his worry grew at seing another room of his house without even the sign of his lover.

No one in the base neither saw you after that petty discussion. And he was almost even expecting the damn rooftop to see if he could find you at this point.

Normally he would think that he would sound pathetic at calling your cellphone, but he was actually worried at this point.

It ringed for a bit as he walked around in the house and shortly after he scowled at hearing the ring of your cellphone coming from you guys shared room... so you were going to do that huh?

He growled again, scratching only a bit his arm before placing his cellphone back on his pocket. Noticing Chrono walking towards him he immediately arched his eyebrow, demanding answers from his commurate.

"She left."

"How and why didn't that good for nothing stoped her?" He growled while Chrono shrugged. "Where?"

"We... have no idea." He gulped a bit at the way those golden orbs darkened at his words while he turned and walked away.

He was close to his own room before he saw Pops enjoying a cup of tea on the living room. The elder, noticing his sucessor looking at him, mentioned with his hand for Chisaki to join him on the living room.

"My boy you surely surpassed yourself this time." Teh elder commented while chisaki took a seat, the young man stoically watching his eyebrows "It takes a lot to anger my daughter in law." He sipped a bit on his black tea with a serious face "And considering that I know her less than you do... I can tell you didn't measure your words. At all."

He furrowed his eyebrows before scoffing and looking at the ceiling in annoyance.

"She came talking with you then? So mature..."

"Well, I came to her actually. After all, poor thing was crying rivers alone."

His chest tightened at hearing his mentor saying such things as he hesitantly looked back at the elder, eyes closed and cup still on his hand.

"So I take it you know where she is.." the elder nodded, still eyes closed.

"You got nothing to worry. She went to spend sometime on her grandparents house, so her safety is assured."

"You can't be sure of that." He hissed while Pops sighed, finally opening hiis eyes to look properly at Chisaki with a sympathetic frow on his forehead.

"Chisaki. I take that this girl is important for you. But you also dont measure your words and actions and even if by accident hurts her deeply." He grunted a bit to lift himself "My advice is that you don't just go barging onto her family's house demanding her back. I know you. Just give some time."

The young man glared daggers at the ground while he interlocked his gloved hands together, tensing up a bit at the hand of Pops on his shoulder.

"I know how much you value her, and didn't meant those words... But you always take things way too far Chisaki." He patted Kai's shoulder a bit before lefting the young yakusa boss alone on the room, alone with his thoughts and nothing less.

~

Three days. Three miserable days and you still didn't even dare to send him some message if you were even alive or not.

He took Pops advice, secretly hoping that by the next day you would appear amd apologize for being long for ao long... but that didn't happened.

He was way too prideful also to admit he was fucking wrong and to look after you like some desperate dog... he felt miserable and even more less patience with his subbordinates than ever, so much that he almost overhauled Rappa for only calling him 'overjerk' on his back... something that normally he wouldn't even mind to care neither bother to be irritated with.

With your absence it came also his longing for sleep. He wouldn't admit out loud, but you were the main reason he had so many good nights of sleep; without any warnings at nights or the constant night terrors he at the past chosed to ignore it.

The guilty was slowly building up after this, he only felt disgusting shivers and scowled when he remembered those words he spoke to you and even if he sat on his office chair he would see the image replaying like a damn broken CD....

He was rubbing his temple with both hand s as he tried to concentrate on reading the tax in front of him before a knocked interrupted his actions.

"Say your name and business. And I hope is something important." He growled before the door opened slowly, the minute he went to argue with teh poor soul entering he widen his eyes a bit when he saw you entering a bit hesitantly and closing the door from behind you.

"Hey..." you said awkwardly, eyes more interested om his bookshelf than anything as you rubbed a bit your arm.

He blinked a bit before he gulped the thick air stuck on his throat.

"Y... you're back."

"I guess." You said with a bit of discomfort in your voice, probably because ever since you entered he didn't took his eyes out of you.

He slowly pushed himself up to walk towards you, some inches apart from you as your eyes were still locked with the bookshelf.

"I... I am..." he scoffed at hearing himself talking "Apologies... I didn't meant any of those atrocities, but it doesn't either erase the pain you must have felt on that time... neither me admiting will heal this, I know..."

You finally looked at him and this time it was his turn to avert his eyes from you, ashamed of his actions and the way he made the person he cared for deeply feel.

"... I should have at least told you where I was expending, I heard taht you were worried-"

"No, no." He interrupted, lifting one of his palm in gesture as the other one rubbed a bit his temple "You at least told Pops about it... neither was a obligation."

"... you mean that?" You asked, while.he looked at you in confusion "Your apology, you mean it?"

"... of course." He looked a bit down, eyes furrowed while glaring at the floor "The last thing I want is to dissapoint or hurt you... yet, I did and do thsi constantly without even noticing it...

You sighed a bit, opening your arms to wrap them around your lover carefully, feeling his body tense at the contact immediately but surprisingly relaxing shortly minutes after.

When he felt your slung coming in contact with his he swore he could feel his heartbeat almost exploding and body erupting into flames... he didn't had noticed that after three days he came to crave to feel again that angelic touch of yours on his rough skin, merely taking all of his discomfort and unpleasant nights as only annoyance of your actions...

"For you to apologize it takes a lot..." you squeezed him bit while he let out a rather shaky breath and awkwardly wrapped his arms around your midsection "I thought that you were just simple going to ignore or let go of it.."

"I couldn't." He said while brushing his fingers through your hair as he rested his head on yours "Yet you even accelt this apology...?" He frowned at feeling your nodding on his neck as he tightened his embrace on you "I will make it up... trust me angel. I will."

"Looking forward to it..." after what felt like years, he felt at ease at feeling your lips in contact with his bare skin, forming that sweet smile he came to love.

[sortagaysortahigh]

no don’t try to justice this both bestestbenn and heybarzy still post about him. you bullied girls of this app because they wrote fics for him so don’t try me. it’s not okey to be mad at one for doing it and then defend your friends when they do exactly the same.

tbh i don’t know what happened because i just saw another blog talk about this but apparently barzysthighs defended a hockey player that voted for trump on her blog. again i did not see this happen but i read about it

I literally haven’t been active on this fucking hellsite since the AM34 thing. I didn’t bully ANYONE off of this hellsite-lets get that straight. I don’t even fucking know who wrote fics about him. I spoke up in that specific situation because as a bipoc when I see a grown ass woman coming at a 17 year old-who is also a bipoc-sideways then trying to discredit their experiences with racism by stating that they’re a child-there’s something wrong with that.

Lets get this straight, I spoke to Nikki before making my post, AND ON TOP OF THAT my post was not just directed at her, she literally deactivated before even finishing the conversation with me. I never once called nikki out of her name, I never came at her sideways, and I have nothing to do with her deactivating-considering she didn’t even finish the convo with me. Don’t accuse me of bullying anyone because I didn’t bully her in any way shape or fucking form. 

Now onto @bestestbenn and @heybarzy (im @ing them because i actually believe that if someone is mentioned then they should be MENTIONED). I have ZERO control over what anyone posts about AM34, I haven’t had a single conversation with Abby or Katie since prior to the fucking AM34 situation, I’ve been on a literal hiatus, I have no idea what the fuck happens on this dash and it’s not my fucking problem if anyone wants to post about him because they find him attractive. Especially when they’ve spoken about the shitty fucking things he’s done and the entire time that ive known abby on this fucking hellsite she’s constantly backed me in things when I’ve spoken out about them. I don’t give a fuck who finds who attractive, i give a fuck about people pretending theres nothing wrong and ignoring issues and OPENLY BRUSHING THEM OFF AS NOT THAT SERIOUS when they impact marginalized communities.

If you don’t know shit about what happened with @barzysthighs why are you sitting here bringing it up to me? I’ve literally been working my ass off constantly and I haven’t been on the dash nor have i been talking to the himbos on a daily basis, I literally wasn’t in the goddamn groupchat for like two fucking weeks because guess what dearest anon, I was MOURNING, as in someone in my FAMILY DIED and i had to deal with that. I haven’t been on the dash, i don’t know what the fuck is going on and the last thing i have time for is a half assed version of an accusation. 

I’m not speaking on thsi shit again after this post, and any stupid fucking anons sent my way are getting blocked. I don’t have time for this shit. I literally came on the dash to have a fucking BLURB NIGHT for valentines day and i made a singular joke about not writing for draco malfoy, because i don’t write for fucking draco malfoy. I turn on anons and yall are quick to start coming at me sideways as if you’ve just been fucking WAITING for this moment. 

[margoshansons]

Desperate Measures: 6/?

Bellamy Blake x Reader

Summary: An unexpected disappearance brings Bellamy and Y/N closer while one of their friends suffers from an awful injury.

Warnings: Violence, swearing, 

Notes: From here until episode eleven is probs my favorite arc to write and I can’t wait for you guys to read it! Thanks for the love! Based on 1x06 “His Sister’s Keeper.”

As the flap of her tent opened she was viewing sleep as more of a luxury than a necessity down on the earth. Bellamy’s voice rang through, “Have you seen Octavia?” It was urgent. 

Y/N flipped another page of her grandmother’s book. “I’m sure she’s off chasing butterflies or something. It’s Octavia” she shrugged, not moving from her sprawled position. She really wasn’t in the mood to talk to Bellamy right now, especially after the events of yesterday.

Bellamy bit his lip and cast a worried look over his shoulder, “I haven’t seen her since this morning.” He hesitated before continuing, “I’m really worried.”

His tone caused her to scramble up from her leisurely position, worry twisting in her stomach at the thought of the young girl captured by grounders.

“Hey,” She softened her voice, moving forward to place her hand on his shoulder, “It’ll be okay, I’ll help you find her” 

Bellamy nodded, vulnerable look on his face disappearing as the two exited the tent. Despite the events of the day, Y/N couldn’t stay mad at Bellamy, not when she needed his cooperation to help this camp survive. Even if he annoyed her. 

“I’ll check around the tents,” She informed him, pulling herself further away from the older brother, frantically searching for any sign of Octavia, “See if anyone has seen her.”

Bellamy nodded before ducking into the dropship, her job thankless as the moved from tent to tent searching for the pretty brunette. 

“Octavia? Are you here?” She ducked into Finn’s tent, where Raven stood shearing the remains of his prison haircut away. 

“What’s up?” Raven asked.

Y/N sent a look between the two, practically tasting the tension between the couple. “Octavia’s missing,” She turned toward Finn, “We could use a tracker.”

Finn nodded, “You got one.” He pushed himself off the forest floor, wiping any spare hair from his jacket as they got ready to leave.

“Finn! You coming?” Bellamy called. Y/N and Finn rolled their eyes in annoyance as the two ducked out. 

“Alright, we’re here,” Finn called, irritated and dragging Y/N with him.

“You know you should tell her.” She brought up as they walked forward. He didn’t need a mind reader to know what she was referring to.

Finn refused to look at her, “I will when the time is right.”

“We’re on the ground,” Y/N responded, “There is no right time Finn.”

A crowd began to gather around the fire as awes erupted from the camp, fingers pointing upward. Y/N lifted her gaze, mouth dropping in horror as she watched hundreds of bodies plummet to the ground in a beautiful meteor shower.

“It didn’t work” She heard Clarke whisper beside her, “They didn’t get our message.”

“A meteor shower tells you that?” Bellamy asked skeptically.

“That’s not a meteor shower” Y/N announced, grief scattered in her voice, “It’s a funeral. Hundreds of bodies being returned to the earth from the Ark. This is what it looks like from the other side.”

Raven lunged at Bellamy, “This is all because of you!”

“I got you your radio didn’t I?”

“Yeah after you jacked it from my pod and trashed it!”

“He knows” Clarke stopped the girl from lunging further, “And now he has to live with it.”

The group set out in tense silence, torches lighting the way when flashlights refused to work. It wasn't long until someone stumbled upon a torn piece sleeve down by a ravine. 

“Is that Octavia’s?” Jones asked. 

Bellamy set his jaw, “Rope!” He called, tying it to the rock before climbing down. Y/N followed immediately after him, her feet scraping down the dirt. Jasper and Finn followed soon after.

“The tracks are deeper going that way.” He responded, “Looks like he was carrying her.”

“Like they did to Jasper.” Y/N murmured. 

They set off in the direction, Finn leading the way as Y/N stuck close to Jasper, hand held on one of her sharpened knives. The heat of a flame burned against her face as a familiar voice called to her, “I didn’t mean to do it.” Bellamy murmured. 

Y/N didn’t need to read his mind to know what he was talking about. “I know,” She responded with a tight inhale, “You were just trying to protect your sister.”

Bellamy nodded, his eyes trained on the road before him, “She’s all I have.” He confessed, “My mother--my mother made me promise to take care of her, and instead I got her sent down here.”

Silence hung between the two leaders as the torch continued to burn beside them.

“I highly doubt that.” Y/N responded, bobbing her head to gaze around the trees.

A regretful look passed over Bellamy’s face as he drew within himself, caught up in his thoughts. “I wanted her to see the Ark. I wanted her to know something other than the four walls surrounding us.” He confessed, his tracks slowing, “So I brought her to the Unity Day dance, I thought I could keep her safe, but instead I got her sent to the sky box.”

Y/N’s stomach twisted as she trained her eyes on the freckled face beside her, the torchlight illuminating the somber look in his eyes. 

“You’re wrong” She swallowed, the words almost getting caught in her throat. “Octavia had a choice too, we all do.” She moved her hand to rest atop his shoulders, the physical touch sending pleasant shivers running down her back. “And she’s not all you have.”

His brow furrowed. 

“You have me.” Y/N sent him a tight-lipped smile. Around him her walls crumbled, and she was starting to like that. Bellamy sent her a grateful look.

The followed the tracks until they reached another clearing in the woods. Y/N drew her breath in, unable to comprehend what had led the grounders to decorate their boundaries with the skeletons of their kills. 

“I don’t speak grounder, but I'm pretty sure that means keep out,” Finn warned. 

Instead Bellamy grit his teeth and set his jaw before whispering, “My sister, my repsonsibility.”

Y/N looked back in warning at the other seven delinquents before whispering, “Be careful, and keep your hand on your weapon.”

She scooted forward, carefully watching the ground for any traps the grounders had laid down. The pace was agonizing, but she knew they had to watch where they stepped unless they wanted to join the skeletons on the wall. 

Bellamy had fallen into step with her again, arm ready to stop her at any point. “Careful,” Y/N warned.

His trademark smirk returned, “So Sparky does have a heart huh?”

A chuckle escaped her as they continued to walk, “Yeah, I know, surprising huh?” She repsonded tiredly, recalling the last time someone had said that to her. 

Bellamy smiled, “So I’m guessing all that Love is Weakness stuff is just bullshit to hide the fact that you’re like the rest of us huh?”

Y/N twirled the knife in her hand, a sad smirk tugging on her lips, “No, that was bullshit I learned from my mother.” She sent him a playful gaze, “But it helps when dealing with people like you.”

Thsi time his smile escalated to a laugh and she felt pride flow through her. “You know in another life I think we would’ve been really good friends.” Bellamy piped up, a half-smile on his face, “But instead, here we are.”

Y/N smiled, thankful the darkness hid the blood rushing to her cheeks. “Tragic.” 

She pushed forward, joining Finn and Jasper, leaving Bellamy biting his lip to restrain the involuntary laughter as he watched her leave with a smile plastered on his face.

The hours they had spent trekking through the forest felt wasted as they seemed to be getting nowhere close to where Octavia was.

“The tracks end here.” Finn responded, double-checking the trees.

Bellamy moved forward, “Then we keep moving,” The overprotective brother was back and Y/N made sure to keep a close eye on the deliquents that still remained. People were tired, they were ready to give up.

“Look,” She approached Bellamy, “I want to find Octavia just as much as you, but wandering around aimlessly isn’t the way to do it.” She urged, watching the conflict rage behind Bellamy’s now cold eyes. His response was cut off with an inquiry from Roma. 

“Hey” She asked fearfully, “Where’s John?”

As if on cue, Mbege’s body fell from the sky, his throat slit, eyes unblinking. Fear surged through her as Finn whispered the terrible truth. “They’re in the trees!”

“Come on” Bellamy called, brandishing his spear as he grasped Y/N’s wrist, pulling her forward with him. Leaves crunched underneath their feet as they picked up speed, her side splitting in pain. But they couldn’t slow down, not even for a second. They stopped when they heard the screams. 

“Roma” he whispered, jetting off in the direction of the other delinquent. They passed Diggs’ impaled body, only to watch as a spear pinned Roma against a tree, blood spurting from her mouth as her screams grew silent. 

“She only came because of me.” Bellamy spoke, voice thick with emotion as he reached up to close her eyes. 

“They led us here.” Y/N breathed heavily, realization crossing her face, “They wanted us to come this way, toward the traps.”

“They think killing us is a game” Finn pointed out. 

Jasper gripped the spear in his hands as crazy began to swirl in his eyes, the bold delinquent gritting his teeth before shouting into the abyss, “Then they should GET IT OVER WITH!”

“Jasper shut up!” Y/N urged, grasping both knives in her hands as she swiveled around herself, the trees rustling. The remaining delinquents turned, cathcing several grounders headed their direction. She twirled her knife before kissing the blade, hoping her aim was good enough to hit a moving target. 

Her arm launched the weapon toward the closest grounder, the blade spinning in the air before landing in the chest of the grounder, his strangled scream ringing through the forest as he fell.

She stared blankly into space, breathing growing shallow as she clenched her hand back and forth, hoping it would make the numbness disappear.

Instead, a bellowing sound pulled her back to reality, eyes widening as they locked with Bellamy’s.

“Acid fog” He replied, scrambling for the pack on his back.

Y/N helped Finn and Bellamy set up the tent as she called to Jasper and Monroe, “We need to take cover now.” The two delinquents were pulled out of their temporary safety as they huddled together under the tent, praying that the fog would pass quickly.

Bellamy’s body was pressed against her, his arm holding up part of the tent as she lay sprawled underneath him, his hot breath against her neck. He was practically on top of her.

Her insides squirmed, nerves rushing to her throat. It was too close. 

They were too close. 

She really hoped that fog would hurry up.

“This is ridiculous,” Bellamy muttered, ripping open the flap to reveal that the fog hadn’t even existed in the first place. Y/n stood up, confusion ripping through her as she breathed the acidless air. 

“They’re coming back” Bellamy readied his spear at the figure in the distance until Finn stopped him. 

“I think he’s alone” The longer haired kid spoke. 

Bellamy clenched his jaw, moving forward, “We’re going after him” He pressed.

“To kill him?” Jasper asked, fear present in his face.

“No” Y/N spoke up, pulling her other knife from her boot, “We catch him, get him to tell us where Octavia is,” Bellamy nodded, thankful for the support. Y/N stepped beside him, pressing forward as she gave her last order, “then kill him.”

They reached the cave by nightfall, following the unnamed grounder deep into the system. Y/N swallowed, twirling the knife in her hand as the four of them shuffled forward, hoping this worked.

She stepped into the cave alongside Bellamy, the knife falling back to her side as she watched the scene before her. Octavia stood chained to a wall, rock in hand as she stood above the unconscious grounder. 

“Bellamy?” She exhaled, a smile crossing her face as she urged him to free her. The two siblings moved over and Y/N embraced the missing girl, comfort washing over her. She was here. She was safe. A clanging broke the two out of the embrace as Bellamy readied a spear. 

“Wait” Octavia called, ready to protect her captor, “Bell, stop, he helped us, we need to leave.”

Rage inhabited Bellamy’s face, disbelief written across his features as he stared at his freed sister. “How can you defend this monster? He locked you up!”

“He saved my life!” Octavia protested.

Y/N knelt down, studying the unconscious grounder with a curious eye. Finn joined her, tilting his head as he lifted the carved piece hanging from the grounder’s pants. A foghorn. 

“He blew the horn” Y/N whispered locking eyes with the other delinquent. “Bellamy, she’s right we need to leave now.”

Bellamy froze, pondering the suggestion as he met her gaze, breathing heavy. Unfortunately, this gave the grounder enough time to leap toward Finn. “No!” Y/N called, grasping his hand in the hopes of subduing him.

Instead, it led to the grounder drawing his knife on her, slicing her arm, drawing the black blood from her cells before lodging it in Finn. 

His brown eyes widened at the sight of the blood pouring from her wound, one word reverently escaping him. “Natblida.”

Sky person met grounder in a locked gaze, Y/N’s wide eyes staring deep into the grounder’s painted ones as he shuffled backward.

Bellamy moved to attack, his roar pulling the grounder out of his reverence, tripping the delinquent before forcing him on his back, the spear from earlier held in the grounder’s grasp. 

“No stop!” Octavia yelled in desperation, “he’s my brother!”

A loud bang rang through the cave, the grounder falling to his side as Jasper stood above the now out grounder, metal pipe in hand. He smiled, moving to Y/N’s side to tie a torn piece of his shirt around her wound. 

“Are you guys okay?” He asked eyes flitting toward Octavia.

Bellamy stared at Y/N before shifting to Finn’s frozen body. “We need to get him to Clarke” He spoke, carrying the kid out of the cave.

Jasper’s voice rang through camp as the two of them limped forward. “Clarke! Where’s Clarke?” Despite what he may have shown in that cave, he was still scared. He was still human. 

Clarke ran forward, confusion hitting her until she saw the limp body of Finn in Bellamy’s arms. “Finn?” Concern laced her voice as she and Raven moved forward. 

“Oh my god,” Raven whispered, eyes glassing over. “Clarke you have to do something, tell me you can save him!” She pleaded desperately. 

Clarke closed her eyes in an effort to think. “I can’t, not without my Mom.” She admitted. “Raven, I need you to fix that radio. Now.”

Y/N pushed the two into the dropship, promising to offer her help with the radio. Jasper lowered Finn onto the other workbench as the three women got to work. Clarke caught her before she got to work, eyes trained on the fresh arm wound. 

“I’m fine” Y/N promised, gaze moving toward Finn. “Save Finn first, then worry about me.”

Clarke nodded, turning back to her hurt lover. She swallowed the remaining pain. Despite the fact that her arm felt like it was on fire, she refused to let anyone else tend to her until Finn was better. 

He came first. They all came first. 

She turned toward Raven, “What do you need me to do?”

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Eurovision 2020 – The Least Useful List Ever

Disclaimer: I am absolutely biased towards certain styles of music and am probably the least impartial person ever. I also don‘t take anything seriously, so you shouldn‘t make that mistake with this list. I mean, Eurovision has been postponed anyway and we‘re all going mad in self-isolation.

France: Tom Leeb – Mon Alliée

MEEEH, it‘s a dude with a guitar singing a quiet love song. Super basic and also super boring. Would be better if there was no English in it, that makes it worse. 3 Points.

Czech Republic: Benny Cristo – Kemama

Czechia has a type. It‘s kinda fun, but it‘s not my style of music. This could be on the radio and I‘d be „Okay, I‘m driving anyway“. There‘s not enough happening for me here. 4 Points.

Armenia: Athena Manoukian – Chains On You

Someone saw Ukraine‘s entry from last year, huh. But I actually kinda like it. I actually like the aesthetic more than the song itself, but it‘s kinda good. Except for the super basic chorus. Wouldn‘t add to my playlist but I don‘t mind it. 5 Points.

Italy: Diodato - Fai Rumore

Hey, I‘m having a déjà vu. Another non-english love song. But this is better than the french one, simply because there‘s actually some emotion in this dudes voice. Also Italy just gets sympathy points from me at this point. 5 Points.

Russia: Little Big – Uno

I love this song so much. It‘s so much fun. It‘s so stupid and campy. In short: very Eurovision. It‘s also just very interesting instrumental-wise. At least I think it is. I really like it. (also their dancer in the blue jumpsuit doing splits and a death drop? Icon) 10/12 Points.

Denmark: Ben & Tan – YES

Why does this sound like Shallow to me? I think it‘s the guitar and the male and female voice. Anyway if it‘s Shallow it‘s bad Shallow. NO from me. I don‘t like the pacing. BUT if they had had a live performance at least it would‘ve been great for audience participation. 4 Points

Estonia: Uku Suviste – What Love Is

Oh. It‘s that kind of song, huh. Why does th music video like this. Why are there spider webs on the microphone. Why is there the word „LOVE“ in an empty industrial hall. Why does he do so many vocal runs. Just a big WHY from me. 2 Points.

Romania: ROXEN – Alcohol You

I know this was the fan favourite song, but I liked literally ALL OTHER songs she had more than this one. It does look really cool though. It‘s also very modern, but there‘s not enough build-up for me? Or rather, it sounds like it builds up to something and it doesn‘t really in the end? Like it builds up to something, but it doesn‘t go as hard as I would have liked it to? But that‘s just me. 6 Points.

Azerbaijan: Efendi – Cleopatra

Okay, this is my guilty pleasure song this year. The music video is super weird (the dancers all look like they do not want to be there, she‘s suddenly dancing around a car in an outfit from 2009 and she‘s raking around in a baththub full of gold dust?), the text is super basic BUT holy shit I just love the pre-chorus and the chorus. I mean. What‘s going on there?...Whatever it is, I like it. 7 Points.

Albania: Arilena Ara – Fall From The Sky

She reminds me of Poppy, of all people. But her voice is deeper. Her song is also more basic. I really have nothing to say about thsi, except that it sounds like a song from last years ESC but I don‘t know which one right now. 2 Points.

Greece: Stefania – SUPERG!RL

If we have learned anything from S!ISTERS last year, then it is that you shouldn‘t replace I‘s with exclamation marks. Also why is she singing about her being super strong and stuff and then she uses her powers to...make two bullies probably break their noses?...and why did the nerd draw her (so weirdly)?  What is this music video… 2 Points

Portugal: Elisa – Medo De Sentir

Conan was robbed last year and therefore I cannot like whatever Portugal does this year. Conveniently, I also don‘t like this song. I swear, there‘s slow and quiet songs I like, it‘s just not...this kind. 3 Points

Moldova: Natalia Gordienko -  Prison

This year‘s music videos are so obscure, but at least this isn‘t the slow-mo-romance from last year. That being said...I do not like her face being so close to the camera. The song is surprisingly decent though. In an Eurovision context, duh. 4 Points

Malta: Destiny – All Of My Love

Two things: Destiny‘s voice is absolutely stunning. I love listening to her sing. She really knows what she‘s doing. And: although I had to skip the narration at the beginning (it made me uncomfortable??) it‘s a great song. It‘s fun. They‘re also all covering their mouths and noses. Truly ahead of their time. 7 Points.

Serbia: Hurricane – Hasta La Vista

My immediate reaction to that opening shot was: „Oh, hatred will win again huh?“. That‘s pretty much all they had in common with Iceland though. Something is wrong about this Instrumental. I don‘t know what it is, but it sounds off-beat for some reason? It‘s super weird to listen to, I don‘t know. It‘s also, eh, basic? 3 Points

Poland: Alicja – Empires

I knew an Alicia in school and I hated her with all I had.  I wouldn‘t say I dislike this song that much, but I also don‘t...really like it? I‘m always sceptical about songs that have very ambigious lyrics and then show some political stuff in the music video because I just KNOW that they do that so they can collect their Internet points while not risking to lose the points of older people who only watch the Contest on TV and will never see the music video. Apart from that, I just don‘t care for the song, honestly. 4 Points

San Marino: Senhit – Freaky! So, in the years where San Marino doesn‘t send Serhat, can we borrow him? I mean, he works in Germany anyway and speaks German, so it shouldn‘t be a problem, right? About the song: yeah, why not. Sounds a bit like they tried to do a little bit of Lizzo here, and I don‘t mind it. The people who did the music video also saw Ukraines entry from last year. The scene where they‘re all touching each other is basically the same. 5 Points

North Macedonia: Vasil – YOU

ME?! Why is he in the „She Got Me“-Bar by the way? And why is there a passed out guy in the background?! Is that girl wearing a Scrunchy? This whole video is She Got Me. Only worse. IT‘S EVEN THE SAME LOCATION?? 2 Points

Iceland: Daði og Gagnamagnið – Think About Things

I haven‘t seen one person on the Internet who dislikes this song and I...for once...am part of the hype. I love this song, I love these people, it‘s so stupid and that‘s why it‘s amazing. Iceland just gets Eurovision recently. It‘s also a total bop, all other things apart. I‘m humming it at least once a day, it‘s becoming a problem. Daði ALSO lives in Germany, so I think we can claim this song at least a bit? 12 Points

Finland: Aksel – Looking Back

In German, your „Axel“ is your arm pit. I just though you should know that. And I‘m only writing that because this song makes me feel nothing. It just faded right out as soon as I looked at my computer screen. It was gone immediately. 3 Points

Sweden: The Mamas – Move

Good voices. This sounds a lot like their song from last year for some reason. I mean. It even has the same lights or am I going mad?? It‘s totally fine though. 5 Points

Cyprus: Sandro – Running

This will sound weird, but...he looks like a german teenager. I can‘t explain it, he just DOES. Yes, the weird moustache totally included. With me talking about this, you can probably guess that I do not care about this song eiter. Bleh. 4 Points.

Slovenia: Ana Soklic – Voda

We wanna pRääääy – I know she (probably) isn‘t singing that but I can‘t hear anything else. The way she looks at the camera also weirdly bothers me, but that might just be because I can‘t really do eye contact. By the way, the chorus totally sounds like Paper from Iceland 2017. To me. I can‘t explain myself. 5 Points

Bulgaria: Victoria – Tears Getting Sober

Ouh...that title. She‘s going for a Billie Eilish-vibe, isn‘t she. She so is. And I wouldn‘t mind usually, but this is...very obvious. Like, VERY. I also don‘t care a lot for Billie Eilish‘s music, so, you know… 3 Points

Ireland: Lesley Roy – Story Of My Life

„Hey, Lesley, we‘re selling you to One Direction so we can go to the Eurovision Finale.“ What do you mean, it‘s not that Story Of My Life? Hmpfh. She also does not look like she should have that voice. She looks a bit like a middle-aged lesbian, if I dare say so. Why are there so many songs this year that I do not care about? AAAAH. 4 Points

Austria: Vincent Bueno – Alive

Damn, I want a Kinder Bueno now. His voice caught me a little bit off guard, I won‘t lie. And I know he‘s Austrian, but he looks like he‘s a classmate of the guy from Cyprus. Both weirdly german teenager-esque. The song is fine. Still not my genre. She can dance though, so I like him. 5 Points

Israel: Eden Alene – Feker Libi

What I conclude from this song: Israel is not yet ready to win again. I mean, the song is totally fine, but...it‘s not anything special? It just blends right in with the song from before. And I wanted to give bonus points for native language, but just the chorus doesn‘t count. Nuh-uh. 4 Points

The Netherlands: Jeangu Macrooy – Glow

Ah, the Dutch, known for weed and speaking funny German. One thing I genuinely don‘t get: if you are the hosting country, why send ballads or sad songs? I mean, the chances of you winning are so slim, you might as well send a song that‘s entertaining for the home crowd. Maybe in your native language, maybe with a catchy and fun chorus or a repeatable dance move...(may I mention Germany‘s opening act when they hosted the contest in 2011 and the way Stefan Raab completely transformed the song to have it be more fun and entertaining? Not the same thing, but I just think it needs attention). The song isn‘t bad, though. 4 Points

Switzerland: Gjon‘s Tears – Répondez-moi

Oh look, the Swiss remembered they know French. I swear, if they send a German song before us and all of Europe and Australia has to listen to Swiss-German I will throw something. Anyway. It‘s better than the Song sent by France. I like the „Ah-aaah“-parts a lot actually. Honestly, I quite like this song in general. The longer I listen to it, the more I like it. Oh no. 7 Points

Latvia: Samanta Tina – Still Breathing

Why do I feel like I heard this song already? Like, in this list. At least she has a very subtle hat. She won‘t stand out a lot. That reminds me, I don‘t understand art. I have also reached the chorus now and have to say that it still sounds a little bit like Azerbaijan but it‘s actually pretty cool. I don‘t know why, but there‘s just something about it. 7 Points

Georgia: Tornike Kipiani – Take Me As I Am

Okay, don‘t add me, but I really like this song. No jokes here. I just really love the way Georgia keeps sending super angry dudes to Eurovision and nobody cares about it. Although he sounds a lot less scary than Oto, which, in my book, gives him some minus points. Still. I like this. This Song also has more German in it than the German Song. Just pointing that out. 8 Points

Germany: Ben Dolic – Violent Thing

When I first heard this song, I absolutely despised it. I think it‘s just my natural reaction to Germany‘s songs nowaday. Anyway, everyone keeps saying that Germany finally has a good song again like it‘s been ages and ages. But, let‘s be real: 2019 was really bad, yeah, but 2018 was super good, I love 2015‘s Black Smoke to this day and we won in 2010, which, for a contests that only occurs every year and has more than 40 contestans, is not bad at all. What I want to say with that: yes, it‘s actually good, but it‘s not our first good song in decades. 7 Points / Not allowed to vote for it

Belarus: VAL – Da Vidna

This is the first video that YouTube gave me an ad for and I‘m not here for it. I know I‘m supposed to judge the song, but I also have to ask: what does she have on her head? That is a serious question. What is that. She also looks like my cousin a little bit, which is neither good nor bad for her. I‘d like to give her native language points, but two things bother me: a) what is she doing with those dudes and b) I don‘t like this song. 2 Points

Lithuania: The Roop – On Fire

(The Roop! The Roop! The Roop is on fire!) I love this. And what I mean by „this“ is the full package. The song is fine by itself (yes, I like weird songs) but his whole demeanor is just so obsucre...I love it. He manages to look like an extremely serious person while doing the silliest moves ever. He also just looks SO Eastern-European, it‘s ridiculous. 10 Points

Croatia: Damir Kedzo - Divlji Vjetre

He does not look like he should sing this kind of song. He looks like a German amateur rapper. Yes I know, it‘s not my fault that a lot of people look German. I don‘t like this song! I‘m sorry! 2 Points

United Kingdom: James Newman – My Last Breath

There‘s a fire-, no wait, wrong guitar intro. This dude looks like what my brother would looks like if he could grew a proper beard and was a few years older. I don‘t know what you are supposed to do with this information, but at least you have it now. For an UK song, this is absolutely decent. 4 Points

Ukraine: Go_A – Solovey

Yesss, ethnic stuff! I love this song, it‘s absolutely great. And her dress is absolutely stunning. I can‘t even think of anything funny to say about this song, it just totally takes me in. 10 Points

Spain: Blas Cantó – Universo

Can we have La Venda back please? And what is he doing with his hands? And why does he look like he does YouTube? So many questions, so little answers in this music video...(no, seriously, I KNOW this dude from somewhere.) 3 Points

Belgium: Hooverphonic – Release

Yah, Release me from this song please. I‘m getting sick of these songs!! Why is everyone whining, the world is bad enough already!! I‘m using two exclamation marks at once so it‘s serious!! And she says losing game, which is a direct nod to Arcade which led the Netherlands to the win. It‘s song science. Or for short: love love peace peace and all that. 2 Points

Norway: Ulrikke – Attention

Whenever I read the word „Attention“, all I can think about is Todrick Hall. Which is a problem, because this isn‘t…a party song. By the way, why is she squinting so hard? She looks like she‘s in physical pain. And not the „I‘m so sad“-way, but the „I really need to go to the toilet please“-way. I‘m running out of things to say so I have to resort to potty humour. Sorry. 2 Points.

Australia: Montaigne – Don‘t Break Me

I know we have all seen the outfit already, but why does she look like that. She also looks so lost on stage? I feel bad for her, but not because of the lyrics but because of the look on her face. Oh, and about the song: meh? 4 Points

FINAL TOP TEN:

One Point: Azerbaijan

Two Points: Malta

Three Points: Germany (I can‘t really vote for them but who cares there‘s no contest)

Four Points: Latvia

Five Points: Switzerland

Six Points: Georgia

Seven Points: Lithuania

Eight Points: Ukraine

Ten Points: Russia

Twelve Points: Iceland

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Why I Stopped Watching Inanimate Insanity (CREEPYPASTA REWRITE)

NOTE: THIS IS NOT AN ACTUAL NOTE AND THIS IS NOT MY ORIGINAL IDEA. THIS FANFIC WAS BASED ON THE CREEPYPASTA ‘WHY I STOPPED WATCHING MLP’. (www.fimfiction.net/story/33551…) THSI STORY CONTAINS VIOLENCE AND DEATH. PLEASE SUPPORT THE ORIGINAL RELEASE. ENJOY.

Dear AnimationEpic

My name is Sonata Silverpen, sister of a fifteen-year old girl named Chrono Silverpen who is a huge fan of your show. Non-stop all she ever does is talk about season 3 of the Inanimate Insanity show and how it is the greatest thing on earth. I have watched a few episodes with her and I have to admit I have gotten hooked on it as well. Or at least I used to. I don't see the show the same way now-a-days.

Ever since she has started watching it she has asked for a YinYang doll, (her favorite character by the way.) I have tried to find one to buy for her at the store but so far I haven't found one or for that matter any Inanimate Insanity toys, I once asked one of the clerks when if ever you will have some, but she had no idea of what I was talking about, she had never heard of it. I have also looked online on Ebay and Etsy, but still haven't seen any toys from your show. Then again, it seems you never made them, as you only seem to sell shirts and song albums.

A few weeks ago Chrono brought home a MePhone4 vinyl figure she said she had found in the playground under the swing set. It was dirty with one of its legs ripped off. Someone had colored its screen black with a pen or marker and it had the strangest smile I had ever seen on a doll. It’s silly, and I don't know why I'm telling you this. but sometimes I feel like the doll hates me.

Chrono loves it and takes it everywhere with her. I can't imagine why she loves it so much, it's a broken toy, but it is her favorite. I tried cleaning it up but I have been unable to remove the black ink. She took it with her for a sleepover with her friend Login at his house a few weeks ago. I'm not sure what happened, but my sister can't come over there anymore.

I don't know everything that went on that night and from what little I do it has something to do with Chrono loaning her MePhone4 doll to her friend, when he went to bed and something happened with him and the toy during the night. It’s silly, I know, but the thing is Chrono has told me Login hasn't been to school since the sleepover. Something about that all he does is scream now-a-days and had to be placed into a hospital. I don't understand what all happened and I'm a little frightened of it.

I have caught my sister on more than a few occasions talking to it, and I'm a little creeped out. Sometimes it seems like the doll is listening and talking to her back, I know, kids can have imaginary friends, but she’s fifteen.

But that's not really what I wanted to write to you about, The reason I'm writing to you is because I don't like how your new episodes are going. They’re neither good or wholesome as when we started watching and to tell you the truth, they’re more than a little sick. I don't know how you can call it a kid's show. And If I ever figure out the schedule to it, I will make sure my sister never watches it again.

When we started watching Inanimate Insanity it was on Saturday mornings, then she seemed to watch it all the time. Whenever we go home from school, or when she wakes up in the morning and all through the day I will find it on. I'm not sure how they do it, but for almost a year now she watches Inanimate Insanity III at all hours of the day and night. It has gotten so bad that I started to block some tags on YouTube and watched TV, DVD’s, and Netflix more often from now on.

What's really upsetting is how the new episodes are going. AnimationEpic, I don't know what's wrong with you or the one that makes these shows but they’re downright evil. Only a twisted person would make something like this and truly like it.

I thought it was strange that it was on all the time but I didn't mind it. That all changed with the episode "Babby Ball", the one where Baseball encounters a vampiric clock and has his mind regressed to infancy. That was a horrible episode, which I didn't like how all the others laughed at Baseball and called him names for ‘getting his maturity drained.’ They kept on until Baseball started wailing loudly with no idea what anything was anymore while the other objects gleefully treated him like a small child.

I was so shocked when I watched it with her. Even more shocking was my sister’s reaction, just laughing and carrying on as if it was just another episode. This is the type of show you put on the air?

The next episode was the next one: "Alas Poor Suitcase" I remember the name of it and that was even worse than the other one. How Suitcase made a sandcastle and the others all hated it. Telling her she is a failure and her creations are terrible, no one likes her, and everyone wishes she was dead. The other objects tormented Suitcase until she literally flipped out. She started biting herself, ripping herself apart while she was laughing and crying at the same time. My god, it was awful. It was so bad I turned it off and I told my sister she wasn't allowed to watch it anymore.

It was disturbing how it didn't bother my sister at all. I talked to her about it later on and she told me the MePhone4 doll said Suitcase deserved it. Everything she does is stupid, no one likes her, and they all do wish she was dead. I was so stunned I took the doll away from her after that and wanted nothing to do with your show.

I thought the matter was closed, I threw the doll away and thought that was the end of it. But it wasn't.

The next day after dinner a new episode came on as me and Chrono watched a cartoon on Nickelodeon. I never seen the Inanimate Insanity show on TV before and this one was just as horrible as the others. Called "LimboPhone4" it was an episode where MePhone4 is trying to learn to play limbo, but he couldn't get it right. After his third try, the others get so mad at him they rip off one of his legs (just like the doll my sister had now that I think of it.) and threw him off a cliff. You can clearly see him hit the ground, along with hearing the sickening sound of MePhone4 cracking his skull and screen.

Every other episode after that MePhone4 has a peg leg and he acts much dumber. I don't get you people. Are guys mentally sick?

Like I said before as much as I tried to stop my sister from watching the show it still comes on all the time. and all the episodes are just as mean. "Pain-brush", when Paintbrush is given a cupcake full of glass and called names as they slowly and painfully die. "Black and White", how they trapped YinYang in a giant fish tank and filled it up with water until he drowned, all the while laughing as he screamed his head off.

How can you call yourself a kid friendly channel when you have trash like this on?

There are more episodes like this but I really don't want to get into it. I have forbidden my sister, who didn't seem to have minded it at all, from watching your Inanimate Insanity show anymore. She somehow got the doll back, don't ask me how, and calmly told me. "You made MePhone4 angry."

What that meant is beyond me. But she is my sister.

As you know this is my second letter to you about your show. I have attached your response to my first letter.

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Dear Ms. Silverpen:

We thank you for your time to write to us about this, But we have never nor will at this point in time have any plans for “Inanimate Insanity III” and from what you have described in some of the episodes, I am not sure if this is some sort of joke from you or another person. You and your sister must have been watching a bootleg.

We are committed to family-friendly entertainment and merchandise, and we would never create horrific shows that would torment our viewers. If you can give us more information about this we will look into this.

Sincerely

AnimationEpic.

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This is your show. It has to be! I see your icon on it every episode. Pictures taken of my screen with the show and your name on it have been attached to my letter to you.

Wait.

I can hear the show coming on in the back...

[lokbobpop]

Feeling

1a : the one of the basic physical senses of which the skin contains the chief end organs and of which the sensations of touch and temperature are characteristic : touch. b : a sensation experienced through this sense. 2 : an emotional state or reaction guilt feelings.

The word emotion comes from the Middle French word émotion, which means "a (social) moving, stirring, agitation." We feel many different emotions every day, like love, fear, joy and sadness — just to name a few.

Feeling feel ing freeing fee ling fe eling

Writing the word feeling

Having my feeling hurt comes up like someone has said something and i ve reacted with that hurst inside i feel unhappy unloved now and this feeling and then to hurt another’s feeling to say something funny enough i joking said just now even whe she has finished her qualifications i will still be smarter and as it was on the phone and she wasn’t looking at me at the time she got upset and said you just called me not good enough and i said no i didnt lol but how easy is it to be hurt or to hurt another how sensitive we all are I remember as a kid our parents would say something wed get all upset and they would say its a joke can you even take a joke and no i obviously couldn’t take a joke i have always taken this seriously its my nature i see to take things seriously i dont take joke very well when someone tell me something i think its true ill say really and they go no im joking :)

Reading feeling

When you touching feeling something like you feel material or a bump in something or on someone i can feel now the skin on my arm touching my leg recently my touch sensation is much stronger im more within me i feel myself more i have calmed more of my body.

Feeling sad comes up when your feeling sad upset how i dotn like feeling sad and upset but i have chosen to be that way and stay in it because i want it i feel i either deserve it so want it or i want another to see im pissed off so hopefully they will feel bad for making me feel sad it all an act not real hey its all blame and mind games.

A song in the 70s came up feelings nothing more than feelings lol

Feeling sad blue angry betrayed bitter or the polarity of this happy joyous excited overwhelmed which could be either but i have felt everything i have felt them all every little feeling there is i have felt it at some point in my life and i just dont want to anymore i just dont want to go up and down i want it all to stop to be over the energy is literally killing me so to here no i more.

I often hurt people feelings i can be blunt in what i say i wont care how i say it its like this is it how i feel or what i think with no care how it might affect them at all.

When you see someone and you can see they are feeling upset and it somehow makes you feel upset as you feel guilt or you feel sorry for them you cant do anything to make them feel better now is a good time to talk solutions if they are open to if not then there really not much you can do.

Feeling ill yes this happens you feel ill you need a doctor i dont do doctors very well and rarely go as i think most are a bunch of idiots ive been ill for years now 10 year roughly with thyroid problems mostly severe tiredness along with tinnitus painful feet knees the list goes on i see i have created all of them and working through the mind and its patterns is long and extensive process and you just want it to happen just like that over night but oh no.

Saying feelings

Thoughts of past relationships where i had me feeling hurt and to never want to get hurt ever again to and ive tighten myself up made myself hard blocked out love from myself and others with fear of being hurt again not ever wanting to feel like that again where i dont have to feel like that again by just not doing it not allowing it within me anymore.

Not much of the happy vibe coem up on thsi word i have noticed it all down mostly so where i am i not allowing myself to feel happy where am i not feeling happy at all why am i not feeling happy and why am i not ?mmm i see i think it takes energy to be happy that im just not happy just like that i dotn like happy its like it has ot happen to me and not to take the incentive to be happy with myself yes this is it why i dont live it is beyond me so i can just live it when i feel like it maybe yes.

Feeling sick comes up as ive had enough of being ill i see ive been given why im ill but still ill so im not walking it clear enough i need to set up stuff to help me i feel for sure.

I think of my mum comes up i think i would hind my feeling because they weren’t taken seriously by her she would day of pull yourself together which she can she can easily say oh im ok ill get over it and she has no burdens really well maybe racism for sure but i cant see that changing anytime time soon.

Really feeling i wonder waht it is like to really feel alive to feel the elements to breathe me in mad out to be here totally living in complete harmony mmmm yes id better pull my socks up hey lol

Sf

Does this definition support me no hell no lol way to much energy going on of oh poor me lol yes i have experienced them all but hell no to ever feeling them ever again lol way to much shit happening but ive got this i can do this im sure i can just stop the participation x got i love me hey

Feeling healing

Feeling

To be exactly where i want to be within myself stable calm to feel the touch of my own skin or of chris to feel how everything feels for the first time every time to experience all like i had never before.

I will live thsi word to support me to touch as ive never touched anything before to to embrace all part of me to love everything about me good and bad to see im a working process and ive got this x

[star-blossom]

nct song ask

okay but firts of all, i’m doing thsi just because @renjunlonjin challanged me to do ALL the nct songs ask and, as THE demon i accepted it :) (i think ill regret it soon but.. let’s see)

asks : 

0 mile: what is your favourite number and why?

my favorite number is 10, i don’t have a why actually, i just like the number ten :v

angel: what are 3 things you find really beautiful?

the ocean; roses (are my favorite flowers); @nanasboi;

another world: which fictional world would you like to like to live in?

narnia

around: what people do you like being in company of?

answered here

baby don’t like it: what are your pet peeves?

i have some but what irritates me the most are: people walking slow in front of me.. omg like CAN YOU WALK PLEASE ??????????? and it’s even worse when they are so many that block the other ways to pass them ??? # turists

baby don’t stop: your guilty pleasure?

ithink i don’t have one.. i don’t really know what to answer here because i don0t have one.. i think.. 

back 2 u: have you ever had your heart broken?

yes, a lot actually.. i fall in love too fast and too deeply so it’s very easy to break my heart. i’m such a emotional bitch and i creat a lot of feelings for someone easily (something i hate about me) and... a lot of people broke my heart before.. 

black on black: favourite outfit?

answered here

boss: who is the person you respect the most and why?

my mom. i love her so much even i don’t show it that much actually.. we fight a lot but i love her.. ofc i do it’s my mom..  why? she’s such a warrior and i don’t want to talk about it here but i have to say she passed through a lot and i’m so glad that she’s alive today.. 

cherry bomb: when was the last time you felt sexy?

i think it was last week when my class was photographying for a school project and i was one of the models. i felt sexy but insecure at the same time, as always.. (i have always to feel insecure about something wow)

chewing gum: what is your favourite candy?

UUUUUUH i don’t have a favorite candy buuuuut, my favorite ice cream flavor is mint and chocolate aaaa it’s so good~ 

cure: what songs do you listen to in order to relax?

2U - JK cover beautiful - Crush i love you boy - suzy if i could i would feeling nothing - blackbear it’s you - henry nothing like us - JK cover paper hearts - JK cover  spring day - elise english cover stay - blackpink try Again - d.ear ft. jaehyun i do - jenyer summer rain - gfriend lucid dream - monogram timeless - nct u the truth untold - bts ft. steve aoki

omg they are a lot i know but, if you listen to some of them, tell me~ 

dream in a dream: what’s the strangest dream you’ve ever had?

AHAHHAHAAH funny fact: i don’t remeber my dreams. only if they are nightmares and as a nightmare, it’s not strange or funny :) i’m sorry.. 

dunk shot: your favourite sportsperson?

HELLO CRISTIANO RONALDO EXISTS uwu

fire truck: your biggest fear?

my biggest fear is to lost veryone who i love the most, my family and my friends.. not only in a “death” siatuation but lost them even in life you know? idk i would react to it.. 

go: if you could go to any place in the world, which place would that be?

i really want to travel to japan. i think japan is a beautiful country and i really ant to know that awesome country better. who knows, onw day!

but if you’re talking in another way, maybe i’ll go to meet my jungwoo baby uwu pleaseeeee

good thing: what are your talents?

do i have any? maybe photography? well since photography is something i’m learning and not a talend i born with, i don’t really know. i don’t consider myself a talented person tbh, i don’t have nothing special

heartbreaker: what has made you cry recently?

KIM JUNGWOO YOU CAN ASK ALO, LIKE I LITERALLY SENT AN AUDIO TO HIM CRYING BECAUSE OF JUNGWOO AHQAHAHAAH WHAT A SOFTIE I KNOW

joy: what makes you happy?

music, photography, dance, my friends, the ocean, animals, men’s perfume, chocolate, roses, my utt bias... 

la la love: what’s the longest crush you’ve ever had?

was my first crush: 4 years :) wow a lot i know, and guess who got her heart broke (hint: me)

lemonade love: is there a thing you did during your childhood that you still do and if so, what is it?

play random songs and creat my own choreography, yes i do that a lot or just when i have time, as you can see, i love to dance a lot!

limitless: if you had to choose one person to spend an indefinite time on a deserted island with, who would it be?

uuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh jaehyun.. idk why but i feel like he’s a good person for this 

mad city: where do you feel most like yourself?

when i’m alone. reallu i’m totally myself when i’m alone, dancing or listening to music! i love being alone 

my first and last: what was the first kpop song you heard and what was the last one you listened to?

first - monster by bigbang last - see you later by blackpink

my page: do you write a diary?

no :) i used to do it but i don’t do it anymore because i don’t have time to have one

neo got my back: have you ever had a near-death experience?

no, but tbh, i would like to experience one

once again: if you could go back in time, what moment would you go back to?

to the day my dog died.. i just wanted to say goodbye to her.. (uhh guess who’s crying...)

paradise: what is your dream vacation?

answered on “go”

radio romance: what do you think about long distance relationships? would you be comfortable being in one?

answered here

running 2 u: what’s the longest you’ve ever run?

i don’t know because i really dislike to run ahaisha 

spring blossom: what’s your favourite flower and why?

roses; they are so pretty and their smell.. nobody never gave me flowers even on my birthday or something but i really like them, they are so romantic.. OMG I LOVE ROSES

summer 127: your favourite memory from a vacation?

i don’t have. fun fact: i never traveled out of portugal :v

sun & moon: are you a night owl or a morning lark?

totally a night owl, it’s now 1am and IM DOING THIS 

switch: if you could be somebody of the opposite sex for one day, who would you be?

answered here

taste the feeling: what is your favourite beverage?

COCA-COLA AAAAAAAA

the 7th sense: if you could be talented in one thing, what would it be?

answered here

timeless: do you have a favourite piece of art and if so, what is it?

well, timeless is considered a piece of art? if so, it’s it :)

touch: are you a cuddly person or not?

YES I AM A LOT OMG I LOVE CUDDLING PLEASE I WANT TO DO IT RN AAAAAA :((

trigger the fever: have you been obsessed by something recently?

not really

try again: what’s the last thing you messed up badly?

not preparing the material to do my internship correctly, omg what a shame

vision: where do you see yourself in 10 years?

working in something related to photography

wake up: at what time do you usually wake up?

it depends.. during school days: 7 - 9 am  weekends: 1 - 2pm... :) 

walk you home: what songs remind you of home?

answered here

we young: what is one film from your childhood that you never get tired of?

ALL BARBIE FILMS AHHAHAAHAH I JUST LOVE THEM TOO MUCH SPECIALLY  THE PRINCESS AND THE POUPER

whiplash: what is the most painful thing you’ve experienced?

answered here

without you: what are three things you cannot go without?

my phone my headphones my keys  :v

yestoday: did you make new year’s resolutions last year and if yes, have you achieved them?

answered here

young & free: what is your earliest childhood memory?

i don’t really like to remember my childhood.. and even talk about it, i’m sorry

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HEEEEEEE I DID IT @renjunlonjin !!!!! WHAT WILL I GAIN WITH THIS???

[calumcest]

hello my dearest helen. nen scheiß darfst du 😌 i might love you a lot but i will fight you about soulmate au's honour. (also if you think about abandoning this fic - or britpop - i will fly to the uk and scream at you until you continue)

i have been crying about your note for days. you're so kind and i'm very glad my fic comments could bring you some joy (i'm currently rereading britpop btw so expect a new one in a couple of days) and that you thought of me is like !! idek i can't explain it but existing in your consciousness outside of tumblr/ao3 is madness to me 🙈

und ich liebe es wirklich so sehr wenn du was auf deutsch schreibst und keine sorge ich weiß selber nich ob deutsch da groß oder klein geschrieben wird aber ich finde auch groß- und kleinschreibung sollte einfach abgeschafft werden. oh und deine handschrift ist sehr schön nur etwas schwer zu lesen 😅

i'm doing real bad tbh but just hearing from you gave me such a serotonin boost you really cannot possibly understand how nice it is that you're back 💕 how's your masters going? also what exactly is your masters? and how's life in general? i would like updates if you feel like it 😊

oh also since you reblogged that ask: i randomly remember the "all hell breaks lose" line from britpop simply bc even though i expected it to happen like that i was so mad about that cliffhanger and it still haunts me. also. every single time you referenced noel writing songs just is continuously at the back of my head bc i both hate and love you for that. and you can really expect me to be randomly thinking about soulmate au and holyverse at all times not specific lines but just those fics in their entirety -spoiler twin

ok firstly holy shit since when can asks be this long...this is incredibly sexy i love thsi for us also since when can u make text small in asks...please teach me this power (also i have 6k of the next chapter of britpop!! if i can get my shit together it will hopefully be posted in the next couple of days) 

!!!! youre SO cute of COURSE i literally adore you i cant even tell you on my big ol break from tumblr how many times i thought about you and when you started commenting on my fics again i was like !! like you do cross my mind you exist outside of these asks very much so <3 (also i am SO excited for that honestly...) 

!! sogar wenn mein deutsch so schlecht ist wie jetzt?? aber HONESTLY ffs es ist so BLÖD aus WELCHEM grund müssen nomen großgeschrieben werden. AUS WELCHEM GRUND!!!!!!!!!!! es ist aber irgendwie ganz nett mit dir deutsch zu sprechen? fühlt sich irgendwie wie eine geheime sprache obwohl wir nicht die einzigen deutschsprachigen sind skdjfbskdjf und DANKE ich weiß dass meine handschrift total unleserlich ist aber wenn sie auch schön ist dann kann ich damit leben <3 

:(( i’m so sorry to hear that is there anything i can do? (more wilde kerle au?) but honestly if there’s anything i can do for you at all i’m always here i really hope things improve for you soon <3 thank u for asking!! my masters...She Is Stressful. She Is. i’m studying history of science medicine and technology and i actually only wanted to be studying history of medicine so i already dont care about like half my course and secondly its FUCKING SO SCIENTIFIC and SO PHILOSOPHICAL we spent half an  hour the other day debating whether you can ever learn something if you dont already know it. WHATTTTTTTT i hate philosophy so much however ive made some really good friends here which has been really lovely! its been shite recently since we had lockdown 2 and the tier system so all ive really been able to do w people is go on walks but you know it be how it be 

!!!!!!!!!! mate i literally remember writing that line like HEE HEE that was the scene i was writing the entire fic for i got to that line and the scene after and then i was like Ah my job is finished the fic is over i dont know what to writ enext ksfjbjwhebfwe also !!!!! thats so cute i wkll possibly try and write more soulmate au over xmas but i cannot promise u anything but britpop is defnitely on the way 6k down 2k to go <3 

[herofics]

Could you write a villain Bakugou one? I loved the Izuku one

This ended up becoming pretty long. Hope you like it. :D

You were at the agency, just starting your shift, you had the night shift again. It was a busy time since all the villains and criminals crawled out of their holes. You mostly liked to work the nights. It was exciting and you were never alone. You had been paired up with a new sidekick who had just entered the agency. You had met him yeasterday, when you found out you were going to be paired up with him. He had said his hero name to be Cyclone and you had told him yours was Shadow Walker, or if he wanted Shadow for short.

“So why are we paired up anyway?”, he asked.

“It’s because of the rising criminal activity. Those who get the night shift are never alone.”, you explained.

“Makes sense. So what are we going to do?”

“Patrol, since you are fairly new I’m also gonna introduce the area to you.”

“Okay. Will we go now?”

“Yeah, let’s go.”, you grinned kindly.

You took the newbie out to his first patrol. He looked like he was ready to take on anyone or anything. You found it funny, he was still new, he’d get to know what real hero work was like.

You had been patrolling for hours and stopped to grab something to eat. You were both leaning to a wall near an alley way. The newbie was munching down his snacks really fast.

“Are you in a hurry Cyclone?”, you asked.

“I… just gotta use the bathroom.”, he said shyly.

“Go, I’ll wait.”

He hurried away and you were left alone, leaning to the wall. You turned your gaze to the night sky. You couldn’t see the start, because the city lights were so bright. You had noticed that Cyclone had been glaring at you the whole night. He probably hadn’t realized, you had noticed his stare. Your thinking was cut short when someone put their hand over your mouth and another around your waist. The person dragged you to the alley and trapped you against the wall.

“Let go of me you asshole.”, you hissed.

“Calm your fucking tits, it’s just me.”, Bakugou said as he pulled the hood of his face.

“Why can’t you just act normal for fuck’s sakes. Or did you miss me so bad.”, you teased with a grin on your face.

“What if I fucking did?”, he growled to your neck.

You shivered. He always made you like this.

“Katsuki, I’m at work, and the newbie might come back any second.”, you resisted weakly.

“So fucking what?”, he growled while he sucked your neck.

“Shadow, where are you?”, the newbie shouted.

“Shit, shit, shit. Meet me at my place in the morning. I have to go.”, you said.

Bakugou kissed you and just grunted for response after that. You took that as a yes. You hurried back to Cyclone.

“Sorry about that, I thought I saw someone suspicious there.”

“Are you okay? You look a bit red and sweaty.”

“Forget it. Let’s continue shall we.”, you shrugged it off.

After a while of silence the newbie started asking you some really weird gueastions. Like where you lived or were you dating anyone. You didn’t feel comfortable tellling him so you just declined politely. Something felt off. He was still just as enthousiastic as before, but it felt like there was a kind of a shadow over him. You noticed you had somehow gotten to a bit of a dangerous part of town. When you looked around you saw people gathering around you and Cyclone.

“Get ready, this might get messy.”, you whispered.

“Oh, you have the wrong idea now (Whole name). You are the only one who is going to get hurt.”, Cyclone laughed.

“What the hell? Who are you and how do you know my name?”, you asked him.

“You see, we have some depts to pay you. You see, you and a few of your ‘hero’ buddies took down our friends. They will now be sitting the rest of their lives in prison. So we are going to teach you a lesson.”

So “Cyclone” had somehow managed to slither his way into the agency you worked for and found out about you. He had brought lots of his villain friends with him. There were probably twenty people surrounding you. You knew you couldn’t take them all on by yourself. This was bad. Could you run? Maybe, if these idiots weren’t too hard to handle. So you took your battle stance and gathered some shadows around your hands. That would pack a punch. All of the villains jumped on you at the same time. You managed to get a few good punches in and knocked someone out, but it didn’t help much. There were so many of them, and before you knew it they had you kneeling to the ground. There were one holding each of your arms so you couldn’t move much. Cyclone walked closer and grabbed your hair. He bended your head back so you were facing at him.

“So, what is our little hero going to do now? Hmmm? There is no way out anymore. Right boys?”

Everyone around him cheered. Like this was some kind of a grand event.

“We are going to have so much fun with you, you little bitch.”, he grinned. “Let’s take her to the base.”

Before he let go of your hair, you spat right to his face. You wouldn’t go without resistance. You kept the face on and stared right at the guy.

“Fuck you.”, you hissed at him.

“You bitch.”, he shouted.

He drew his leg back and kicked your stomach. Luckily were able to concetrate some shadows to shield you. He was about to do it again, but before he could, someone had shoved him face first to the ground. It was Bakugou. He was angry, you could see it. He was breatging heavily and there was smoke coming out of his palms. Hie eyes had a mad glow to them anf you knew thsi wouldn’t end well. The guys who had been holding you had stumbled back and accidently let go of your arms. You jumped up and walked up to Bakugou. He was fuming. Now that you were mostly safe, he started his assault on the bastards who had the nerve to do something like this. To touch you. You were his, only his.

In a few minutes, all the people who had just moments ago surrounded you, were down. Knocked out or maybe even dead. Lastly Bakugou walked up to Cyclone, who had regained conciousness, and tried to crawl away. Bakugou basically jumped on top of him.

“So you are the genius behind this fucking masterplan huh?!”, he growled.

“The bitch deserves it, she has put many of us in jail…”

“You touched her with these filty fucking hands. I’m gonna break everyone of your fucking fingers. One by one. I fucking promise.”, Bakugou grinned like a maniac.

“Katsu, let’s go. It’s almost morning anyway.”, you sighted.

Bakugou got up, but stomped on the dude’s hands a few times to keep his word. Then he turned to you, huffing and grunting. He grabbed your arm and started to drag you towards his place. You knew it wasn’t too far and you didn’t mind going there. You were pretty tired anyway.

When you got there Bakugou, threw you on the bed and climbed on top of you.

“You okay?”, he grunted.

“I’m fine. Thanks for saving me.”, you smiled.

“I just happened to be around, nothing damn special.”

“Whatever.”, you sighted.

“I’m gonna finnish what I started earlier on the alley.”, he growled.

Before you could even answer he was already ripping your costume off and nibbling your neck.You brought your hands to his hair and brought his lips to yours. You crashed your lips to his and opened your mouth a bit, allowing his tongue inside. When your lips parted Bakugou looked at you with his eyes filled with lust, but he also looked very serious.

“You are mine. No one will touch you but me. Fucking got it?”, he growled.

“Got it.”, you panted, as Bakugou continued to attack your neck. Youn knew he could get extremely possesive and jealous, but at times like these it wasn’t such a bad thing. You knew the guys had only held you down, but Bakugou disliked that everyone touched you even casually, but he hated if people tried to hurt you. He was definetly not the most gentle person, but he had his own way of showing you he cared, and at the moment you had no complaints about his way of doing things.

[jungkookio]

bias tag game

hoooooooo boy so i was tagged by @hoodiejungkook​ @literally-just-yoongi-trash​ @aragyeom​ to do this... y do u want me to expose myself like this

Rules: write down the last 15 associated tags with your bias.  

yoongs:

#take his belt and choke me with it

#not to be nsfw buti have an undying need to fucking hug this man 

#when wiwllhe start capitalising on his sweat as a highlight tbh #i wna tthtta glowhgngnnfngngnghhggghhg #why is my grandpa man so hot ti rlly wanan dfckkin d8 him

#omfg fuck off #look at him hes a dumpling #a soot ball #he owns the key to m heart #honestly im rlly soft over my boys tonight #im cryign in th club

#im sorry but he looks like that sailor moon 'but you didnt do anything' meme #but like hot

#im... rlly out here loving this loser i cannot believe myself #i fell in love with some grandpa infant hybrid #look at this pingu lookin ass god i love him so much

#who let this emo kid out the house #wheres his mum

#c hoke #what the fuck wjat the fuck #when will he fucking spit on me #whatthehfuxuckgoddddddddddddddd he #what the fuck i swear everyone wants me to roll into a coma and fucking die #i hope ifkckng choke seriously what thejfuck is thsi #what is his problem why is he like this

#thsi is the begsat theing to evr hapoenr yi me shsudjrnshjsjrbndkansb pleaese

#ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my god you own my fucking heart #u cld own my kidney too if u ever need it just ask

#i want him to tuck him in n kiss his forehead but i also want him to spit in my mouth u feel? #probably not #kinkshame me

#okay... he gettin thicker #i love my man's pancake ass okay #im eatin well tonight !!/1!!1/! #nourished !! #acvdhdjsjbdbsjsj hav i evr mntiond i hte mslf

#i love him so much ohmygod  #!! fuck !! #m heart went nyooooooooooooom  #💟💖💗💕💓💝💟💓💕💖💞💗💟💖💕💞💓💝💟💕💞💓💝💟💗💞💕💗💟💓💝💕💗💟💖💖💟💕💞💓💖💗

#m heart just launched outta m chest #idk wht t doabout it tbh #i... need that

#ohmygodohmyogogododdoohohoh #hooh my fuckicjg n god #im fucking malfunctioning btixch #bwaht the fuck he looks so fucking goood #hes rlly rpepin the gays again inhis flannel #an icon #he looks like a billion fckng dollars bitxchm im rlly choking #im gna eat a fucking shoe i love him so mcuh #godthey rlly mad ehim blond again #i dk what to domblond yoongs has always been m favourtei #n im alwaysh fucking screaming about it and bitch x hes rlly blodn n im rlly crying because fuck #hhes in his fckckng prime okay #hes th mc of m heartmcnncnnnnnggggggggggggggjhsbdhjbfhbnj

jungkook:

#i wanna punch him in th face #but with lovecause i love him so much  #i cld never hurt him #honestly i'd much rather him sucker punch me in the jaw #look at him he's such a shit but he's my favourite #eugghhdghhdhhhhjjhhjhj 

#he cld crush a bitxch with those thighs #(its me) #(im the bitxch) #(please crush me)

#fucking b e a n me #rightin th fckn skull #just straight up fucking murder me #what kinda zoom #its all so shiny #hes fckng gleaming #his shirt is fcking gleaming #meanwhile im constructing my coffin while i wait for him to b e a n me #the fuck

#biyxch his tiddies bigger than mine

#its always th lasttwo gufs that tip me over the edge #m reachign fr th mfing gun bitxch #i hate this shirt n its aphrodisiac bullshit #oyster juice #it had to have been soaked in fckng ousyetr juice #can u hear my inner turmoil sis............. this shirt has victimised me #the shirt #it strikes again

#wow look its my emo boyfriend

#ggggggggggggggno the shirt can fuck off #whoever manufactured it #you know what no it wasnt manufactured #it was hand crafted by satan himself to fucking tempt me to evil #show me a single fancam of mr jeon fucking jungkook in that shirt where he doesnt look at one with the fucking devil #find me one! #i can guarantee u wont find any bitxch #possessed #absolute blasphemy #i hope i fckign burn in hell

#the second gif is him throwing my heart out the fucking window

#ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my gohd how can he be this cute while literally drnched in sweat #ion kno but hes gleaming #shining #glowing even #he hsa no faults #look at his smile it cld make flwers grow fck off #n the stars are in his eyes #all of them #im real emo tonight #hes so bright #the most beautiful boy #a baby #my best baby boy in th whole wrld #i wld gv hm m everythng #i love hm so mch m heart is so full #im nourished

#this era makes m choke on air #he was so rude the entire time i really hsatge bjgbnkgjbnfdkjbdfj bjbngnbkgnbkgfkbng #...gotta go #i hope he *** **** ******** ** *** ***** ** *** **********

#jungkook is so cute i love him so much what the fuck #he is the purest mostwholesome lil fella ive ever seen #his gecko friend :(((( #bitxch #search: how to be a gecko #hes so excited wgdhjb #'this one is a different guy!" #what the actual fuck jungkook rip m heart out y dont u #he saved m life wow #bad day who? dont know her #m never gna b sad again

#oh my god someone get me out of his ass #i'm too far #so far up his ass

#ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm????? #i want him to dropkick me down a flight of stairs

#i want to fuxjckxking die and be dead get this photo away from me #what the ever loving fuck #are you seeing jungkooks arm??? are u seei g it #cause biyxch i am and i choxked #i hope i die #ababsbndnenjabsbsjjsnsl ouc h

#hes like my age in these photos whahat the fuck #why do noboys near me look exactly like this with this exact personality and this exact dna

jimin:

#he looks like a sad puppy and im not having it #ill fight the fucking rain #ill punch a cloud i dont give a fuck 

#i wld step on a lego brick for u

#omg hs lilcrooked tooth #im ugly cryign bitxch #thats it im cryign in th club fr real

#im screamign outta my ass #what the fuck jimin #what kinda extra ass #he did a fuckin split to try and kick a golden glittering pompom #this is gay culture

#he looks like a rich housewife #please step on me

#his fucking n e c k #look at it fuck #what the fuckim..... #im rlly reaching fr th fckng gun sis jesus hcirst

#@nasa i will pay you to launch me into th fckng sun bitxch 

#can he maybe... jump like that again... on m fuckin head 

#i swear hes like... made of gold and honey and stardust or smth what th e fuck

#i literally just said oh my god under m breath #buyt i cldnt get th words right so i just sorta went ohgghg #what the fuck

#this is some chaotic evil behaviour right here what the fuck jimin

#perfection? on my dash? its morelikely than u think!

#i hope i die immediately right now this very second

#can he punch me in th fucking throatplease #i will pay him to straight up fucking deck me

#oh my fucking god im #he #whatthe actual fuck is this?????? #what the fuck is thsi ?!??!?!?! #no #ihave truly had e nough of this shit ajshdbjdbnjfkfl #i become a fckcng jimin stan and this is th shit i get in return???????? #chronic agonising pain #yes thnk u jimin thts rlly what i fuckcing signed up for #this was not part of th fucking contract #i just wanted a cute squishy boy with a lil button nose #n mybe a bit of sad contemplation #i did not want !!!! sin !!!!!! #in my christian household????????? #blasphemy #this is fucking blasphemy #the power of christ compels you #fuck wheres the holy water bitxch #this boysjhdbfjhbfjbjgbjbfbflk #u kno what fuck it if this is what death feels like sign me th fuck up #guess ill just die bitxch

do u ever just look back at your past self and think... is she okay

im tagging: @namjoonsgalaxy @blumiin @minsuga--genius @velvethoseok @hobisnovia @gukiee @itskimtaehyung @parkjiminivan @jiminyoongs (if u want !!)

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Wanted - Jungkook Scenario (Angst/fluffy/slight smut) - Part 6

PART 1 / PART 2 / Part 3 / PART 4 / PART 5

A/N: I decided to re-write the part 6 of thsi story just because I felt it needed to be changed! So I hope you enjoooy and send me your thoughts on the story! 

Members: Jungkook x You ft. Jimin & Taehyung Genre: angst, fluffy, smutish Warnings: badboy, cussing, mature Word count: 2836

                          “Whos’s gonna be the first to say goodbye?”

“You broke me.” Jungkook hears your voice, feels your breath near his ear “My heart is crushed into pieces.” You said again “I never wanted to do that” Jungkook said looking at you, you started to cry “How could you do that to me?” you take few steps back from him “Y/N. I am sorry.” He kept coming towards you but couldn’t manage to take your hand “I HATE YOU-“ you scream “JUNGKOOK!” Jungkook wakes up breathing heavy, all sweaty. He looks around with his eyes wide open and sees Taehyung standing next to his bed. “Are you okay man?” he asked Jungkook looks around, feeling weak. “Jungkook?” Taehyung raises his eyebrows “Yeah…Umm I am fine.” He finally spoke and sat up on the bed “You don’t look so fine” “W-what are you doing here?” Jungkook stood up and walked over to the bathroom “Came here to pick you up” “Right.” He said and washed his face, looking at himself in the mirror. Your voice, face kept repeating in his head. The dream felt so real. Taking a deep breath he looks at himself for one more time and takes a white T-shirt, throwing it over his head.

“Um Jungkook.” Taehyung spoke “You forgot to put on your jeans” he points “OH right. Wow, I don’t know what’s happening to me” Jungkook laughs a bit

--- “Hey Y/N” Taehyung smiled and kissed your cheek “Hey” Jungkook looks at you and sits down “Hey” you look at him Jungkook kept looking at his phone. Taehyung and you kept your arms on each other till the bell went off. Taehyung kissed you and two of you sit down on you seats. You look to the side at Jungkook, but he didn’t do anything. He kept being quiet, resting his chin on his palm.   You take a small piece of paper and give it to Jungkook. He takes it and opens it. “Are you okay?” He looks up and looks at you, nods his head. “I am.” You read his answer “You look down.” “I am fine.” You sigh and two of you look at each other.

Taehyung from behind watched two of you passing notes, he was curious, jet little bit jealous. As the bell goes off for end of class, you stop Jungkook by putting your hand on his chest. He looked annoyed, not wanting to even look at you. “Are you okay?” “You already asked me that.” He looks down at you “I think you’re lying” you said “You always thought that, am I right?” he leans down and winks As Taehyung walked up, Jungkook left the classroom. “He had a dream. I don’t what was it, but he woke up all sweaty, and was breathing heavy.” He explains as two of you walked together “That doesn’t mean he has to be cold towards me” “Since two of you are talking?” “We are friends” you said “Friends?” Taehyung laughs “Yeah” “We’ll see how that goes” he nods his head “Why you always want something bad to happen? Especially when it has to deal with Jungkook.” You close your locker and walk away

 On a break, you sent Jungkook a message. “Why are you like this?” Jungkook, 9:02AM: Y/N, I am fine You, 9:03AM: You can tell me what’s wrong you know? Jungkook, 9:03AM: Tbh not feeling that well, probably will be sick. But there’s nothing to worry about. You, 9:04PM: You need medicine Jungkook, 9:05: lol Y/N you ain’t my mom. I’ll be fine

You smile a bit and look up to see Jungkook looking at you. He shakes his head and looks away. “Y/N party at my house TONIGHT!” Rose smiled and sat next to you “Party?” “It’s Friday girl! My parents are away for some business things” she explains taking a sip of her smoothie “It’s green” you point at her bottle “Oh yea, decided to eat healthier!” she smiled and you laugh “Wooow. Now that is some big news!” you smiled and she pushes you a bit “So… How are things going?” “I told you over texts, Jungkook and me are friends now, and I am fine with Taehyung” “Just fine?” she looks up at the sky “Yeah.” “I was team Jungkook to be honest” you quickly look at Rose “You what?” you laughed looking at her “I just don’t like how, suddenly you were all about Taehyung, you know?” she looks down at you “Well, I was having a plan of getting with Tae to make Jungkook jealous and I don’t know what happened after. I was just a mix of everything” you sigh and lay down on the grass “It’s okay, you were just finding yourself still.” Rose smiled and lays down too “But…” you start and stop at the thought of Jungkook. He was just replaying in your mind. “But what?” “Nah, it doesn’t matter. I am happy for being friends with Kook” “Kook?” Rose laughs “Nice nickname.” “Kookie.” You smiled widely “Awwww” Rose said and two of you look at each other “Stop it.” You laugh Jungkook and you got A’s on your project which both of you were happy about. “See Jungkook, working with a beautiful girl makes you work harder” teacher teased “Yeah yeah” Jungkook nods his head Two of you walk out of the classroom and head outside, to go home. “You coming to Rose’s party?” you ask “Probably yeah. I’ll see you there” he puts on his half smile and rushed to Jimin and Taehyung waiting for him in the car

  --- Everyone was drinking, drinking too much. It was so amazing that you didn’t bother about a thing anymore. You grabbed Taehyung’s face and kissed him hard. His hands on your ass. “God you’re too fucking beautiful” he said between the kisses. His kisses got more passionate, two of you made out on the couch, with him being on top of you. You didn’t care what anyone was saying or thinking about two of you. It was just him and you. No matter how hard you tried to forget the feeling of you being watched, you couldn’t.  Taehyung’s lips fall on your neck and you open your eyes and look around quickly and see familiar face, Jungkook. His eyes fall on the floor then on you again as he drank everything he had in his cup. He smirks and walks away. “Baby I want you” Taehyung whispered “We can’t do it right now” you said “Ahhh that sucks” Taehyung comes off you and looks at you “But I will get you later” he smiled and kissed you again

“Y/N let’s go to the hot tub!” Rose grabbed your hand and pulled you with her “Rose, I didn’t bring my bikini!” you laugh “I mean Y/N underwear is the same thing?” she smiled and walked into the hot tub where few more other friends of yours and hers were. You took off your skirt and top, shoes and walked in the hot tub. “Yeahhhh” you smiled and sat down

Jungkook was with one girl. Making out with her. She grinds on his lap, his hands squeezing her ass, pulling her more towards him. “Meet me upstairs?” she smiled “Sure will” he smirks

She got off his lap, Jungkook looks around noticing Taehyung holding some girl’s hand and walking upstairs with her. “You coming?” girl looks at Jungkook, he nods his head still looking at Taehyung

She took Jungkook’s hand and led him upstairs. Jungkook was looking around, in every room where Taehyung is. He wanted him to not do what he thinks he’s doing. He spots Taehyung closing the door of the room at the end of the hall. “I think there’s a free room” Jungkook spoke and opened the door of the room where Taehyung is. He was all over her. Taehyung turns around and pushes Jungkook out. “What the fuck dude!” he shouts and shuts the door locking it. Jungkook stayed in shock. Knowing what Taehyung is doing and what will be done, will fuck his head over and over just because you don’t even know what’s going on. “Jungkook?” girl smiled “I.. I’m sorry, I am just not feeling like it.” He spoke “Awww baby, you can later come with me to my place? Or you want my number?” “Number, I’ll call you babygirl” He smiled and kissed her lips She smiled and typed her number in Jungkook’s phone. She pulled his shirt and pressed her lips against Jungkook’s. “I’ll see you around” she spoke Jungkook smiled and she left. He kept standing, looking at the door where Taehyung is now fucking a girl. That girl isn’t you. He slides down the wall, putting his hands on his head. Will he tell you or he keeps this as a secret so you don’t get hurt, just to protect you from all the pain. He tears up. He was so angry that he wanted to break in that room and punch the shit out of Taehyung. Who’s a bad guy now? Him or Taehyung? It never was him, it was always Taehyung who didn’t show his true colors to you.

You laughed with the crew, not even knowing what’s happening upstairs. Noticing you haven’t seen Taehyung, you stopped to laugh and kept looking around if he’s anywhere near. You spot Jungkook walking pass, so you got out of the hot tub and walked inside. Jungkook was sitting down on the couch being really fucking down. You walk up to him, and he didn’t even bother to look up at you. “Jungkook” you said and sat down next to him Quickly he runs his hands down his face and looks at you. “Are you crying?” you look closely at his eyes “No..” he shakes his head “What’s going on?” “I am not feeling too well you know” he laughs and looks at you, licking his lips He looked so nervous, out of his mind, like he wanted to throw and break things. That he was angry, mad at something or someone. “Do you want to go outside?” you said and he nods his head

You walked behind Jungkook. You got lost in the thought as you kept looking at his back, arms, everything. For a second you didn’t even think about Taehyung. Jungkook stops at the front porch and puts his hands in his pockets. “Do you want me to bring you water or anything?” He shakes his head, keeps looking forward. Both of you stood in silence, you look up at Jungkook and his eyes meet yours. “I feel like I done something-“ “No no no Y/N. Stop.” He cuts you off “Today is like that. I am feeling not well, down and I don’t want to deal with bullshit you know. It’s not your fault of how I feel” he points at himself You nod your head and look away. “Can I ask you something…?” “Yes” he said “Do you know where Taehyung is?” Jungkook’s eyes go wide open and his expressions change. He could feel his heart beating so fast, he couldn’t calm down. He wanted to tell you, but he couldn’t.

“I..I don’t know” he raises his shoulders “Oh, okay… I was just wondering because I didn’t see him for a while now” you sigh “BUT did you catch someone?” you elbow his arm smiling “I did. But I wasn’t feeling like it” Jungkook smiles “Oh hell no. What’s happening to you Jeon Jungkook” you look at him “Times change I guess” he laughs and throws his arm around your shoulders “Come on friend, let’s go dance or something” he looks down at you and two of you smile and walk back inside

 Taehyung walked out of the room and stopped for a moment. He runs his fingers through his hair and walks downstairs. He saw Rose, Jungkook and you dancing. Jungkook saw him and just gave him a look. Taehyung right away knew something was going on. Knew that Jungkook saw and knows everything. What if he tells you what will happen?

Taehyung walked through the crowd and steps next to you. “Tae where have you been?” you asked “Just… Talking with few old friends” he looked at you and lied to your face

Jungkook watched Taehyung lying to you, Rose looked at Jungkook being pissed off. She thought he was just jealous of two of you. “Jungkook, can I talk to you for a minute?” Taehyung turns to Jungkook and he just nods his head

Two of them walk to the kitchen. “Who the fuck you think you are?” Jungkook spoke being angry “Calm down man-“ “CALM DOWN?!” “I know I- I done something-“ “THEN I am a bad guy here? I don’t care?” Jungkook cuts him off Taehyung takes a deep breath “YOU…. You cheated on her. On Y/N” Jungkook whispers to him, not breaking the eye contact Taehyung looks down on the ground and shakes his head “No” . “You fucked up. There’s no going back” Jungkook pushes him slightly “Please don’t tell. Please don’t” Taehyung begged Jungkook clenches his jaw looking away. “She deserves to know, but I won’t tell her. You will.” “I fucking hate you man. You’re fucking unbelievable Taehyung.” Jungkook pushes him to the side and walks away

As he grabbed his jacket, Jungkook looks at you one more time before leaving. You started to walk towards him but he closes the front door. You stop not knowing what happened. Taehyung walks slowly out of the kitchen. “Taehyung, why did Jungkook leave?” you put your and on his arms “I am going home too. I’ll text you… Or call whatever..”  he didn’t even bother to look at you “Do you want me to come with you?” “No. I’m good” “You’re drunk” “I said I am good” he looks up at you coldly and walks away

That hit you. It hurt your feelings. How can everyone be so cold and heartless tonight. Did you do something wrong? “Y/N?” Rose stands in front of you You tear up and she quickly pulls you in a hug and you hug her tightly. The night ended miserably.

 --- You sat alone in your room after few nights passed from the party. Taehyung didn’t ever call you or texted you after that night. You would sit in the dark on your bed, like now and cry because of him. Be so worried and broken because he’s not there. He isn’t there to hug you, kiss you, hold you in his arms. He never showed up in school. Jungkook was hanging out with Jimin all the time, you didn’t want to bother them. Rose and you would go on walks, go to the gym, get some food but nothing didn’t make you take Taehyung off your mind.

Rose kept being with her boyfriend and you were alone.

With tears in your eyes, you kept texting Taehyung, but he never replied. “Jungkook are you awake?” you click send and wait for a reply. You look through the window where stars shined and moon was high up, you smiled a bit how beautiful that sky is. Your phone buzzes after few minutes Jungkook, 1:00AM: I am now, what is going on? You, 1:00AM: I don’t have anyone right now when I need someone Jungkook, 1:01AM: Are you okay Y/N? You, 1:01AM: No You start to cry more and you lay back on your bed, putting your hands on your face Jungkook, 1:02AM: Do you want me to come? You, 1:04AM: Please

You quickly type your address and see if he saw the message “I know where you live, Taehyung told me before. I’ll be here in a minute”

You sigh and wipe off your tears and stand up, looking at yourself in the mirror. Your face looked tired, eyes red and puffy because of constant crying. Soon after you hear small stones thrown at your window. You walk over and open the window and Jungkook was standing there. “Can you climb up?” you whisper “I mean if there was a tree or something I would” he looks around “Oh wait, I got an idea” he adds and walks over to the garage. He steps on the garbage can and climbs on the garage’s roof. Step by step and he walks into the room, closing the window slowly behind him. He turns around facing you. “I’m sorry that I woke you up-“ “It’s fine, I couldn’t sleep anyways…”

You nod your head “What’s wrong Y/N?” that simple question made you tear up

Jungkook felt hurt and sad because of you crying. Especially because he knows what worries you and he can’t tell you. At first he didn’t know what should he do, but his arms reach out and he pulls you close to him. You small arms wonder around his waist and hold on his T-shirt. He could feel you shaking, feel your tears against his chest. “You will be okay” he whispered

[lokbobpop]

Face

1a : the front part of the head that in humans extends from the forehead to the chin and includes the mouth, nose, cheeks, and eyes. b : the face as a means of identification : countenance would know that face anywhere. 2 archaic : presence, sight. 3a : facial expression a friendly face

1300, "the human face, a face; facial appearance or expression; likeness, image," from Old French face "face, countenance, look, appearance" (12c.), from Vulgar Latin *facia (source also of Italian faccia), from Latin facies "appearance, form, figure," and secondarily "visage, countenance," which probably is literally .

Face fa ce f ace

Writing the word face

I think of my own face and walking myself out of the self judgement ive had about my face like its aging it deep line sagging the lack of elastic within it and how i have seen it now as nit being so attractive as it was and having to deal with aging i have felt unattractive for some time with my face only seeing what is bad about it and not appreciating what i have but only seeing myself in separation to myself not loving me fully like it should be i love my physical i love how we have evolved i love how we have moved through time together now who would i be without this beautiful body that has put up with so much of my mental abuse my body has never hated me for what i have done to it isnt never though why are you doin get his to me i cant cope i have to get away from thsi abuse no it held me it has supported me and whats left are the scared of the abuse i have put apon my own body this is how its had to cope with my abuse this is what it has gone through with my abuse of my thoughts of fear anger rage hate blame comparisons all of it every emotion it has had to deal with my thoughts 24/7 and how i look not its what i have dont not what my body has done so i have to love my face how could I separate from it its who i am and have been and who i will become from now so i love my face i love my body and i hope we are very soon ti be perfectly as one together for ever and i never abuse my physical again i just love my physical.

Reading face.

Face off the movie where they change faces john travolta and nick cage weird movies for sure taking each other’s face off and swapping it.

Boat race come up in cockney slang its you face

To face things yes i have to face so much it feels liek doing the videos im not looking forward to doing this but i will do it because i dotn what to do it i have to face myself i need to face all parts of myself to see what bring up things within me to face to get over and move on so the more i face within myself the better the more i move out of my mind the more i move into my physical where ive always meant to be with me together as equal and one experiencing this life to its fullest so here going to creating myself within myself for whats best for all.

What some people have to face is the most horrid things that they have made mistakes with within there life and its going to be so hard for many to face what they have aloud to do to themselves and to others just be facing my very small piece in life seems enough for me imagine ive id done so much more and how hard it would be to change put people do all the time change big events let them go and move on they pass them maybe its harder to pass the small insignificant ones are harder lol not but they are annoying hey

When you face your past and see your past you can change how you feel about your past it can no longer hold you back no longer hold you down it can no longer manipulate you into dread forgive yourself of all you have aloud move on past face the ugly you face the bad you embrace you when you mad your mistakes face all about you until done.

Face to face ive see i have had hard times with this i dont like confrontation i dotn like doing face to face i feel like im not good enough i will be wrong in the face to face confrontation i see facing another is so hard as i have feared i would get hurt be them they would put me down for something i have done to them yes it has been hard doing face to face but this is what is needed to happen the faster we face what we have aloud the better when trin is angry i have ot face everytime my anger i had towards her so facing her im facing myself.

Saying face

My face thoughts again of it aging getting old wanting to look young again not wanting to ever age lol

Face creme i done use face cream at all well i have tried but I forget to i forget to look after my skin and support it i need to set up a moment in every day for me for my body to support it as best as possible.

Im currently facing myself all of me my mind brings up the most obscure things for me to face each day for me to get over each day until it sees i dont care about this energy anymore it will still bring them up over and over again. So just processing what is here is enough.

Sf

Does this definition support me no it has some fear of not liking my own face and what i still have to face within me but i do know i will try until i die i will do it until complete im doing my best for me as best i can im proud of me i embrace me within me.

Face fa ace

Face

To see self and embrace self support self cherish self and the path ahead to create self for the best of me and all others.

The face on your head your features of eyes nose ears mouth cheeks forehead and so on you to love all things about you.

I will use this word ot support me facing me creating me loving me to face all point about me to face all i until dont until finished.

[lokbobpop]

Decide

intend, have in mind;" Middle English mēnen, from Old English mænan "intend (to do something), plan; indicate (a certain object) or convey (a certain sense) when using a word," from Proto-West Germanic *menjojanan (source also of Old Frisian mena "to signify," Old Saxon menian "to intend, signify, make known," Dutch ...

adjective. that settles a question or dispute or leads to a final decision; determining; decisive: the deciding vote; The weather will be the deciding factor as to whether we have the picnic or not.

Decide de side dec ide de cide decid e

Writing the word decide

Who i decide to be in every given moment is to totally up to me i decide who and what is best for me now not my mind my minds time is over i dont need it to make my decision anymore i am quiet capable of making my own decisions my decision are whats best fro me and for other and not in separation to myself or others its very freeing to see this and to now be finally ready to do this this is the biggest thing to happen to me for billions of years and how i should be embracing this with all my heart a new me the real me is merging and coming to be mad im excited to live me dropping the old off bit by bit.

Reading the word decide

I decide comes up i decide who iam again not my mind a revelation has happened after eons of time.

The decisions ive made of this lifetime had not been the best for me they have been in separation to myself and others thinking i have ot win be the best or thats it its all over i see from a very young age ive made the wrong decisions for myself only seeing myself thinking this is best for self but it hasn’t nothing has been the best for me i have not loved myself as i love myself right now i have not given to me as i wish to give myself i have deceived myself and others with my decisions.

Guilt of my decisions ive made how self interest is all i have been how i want all the money through desire without even considering a person that hasn’t eaten for days but i want more so much more than them i have cared about them and there plite only seen my own problems and so have separated myself from other parts of myself within another.

The decision to leave Australian last year without taking into consideration I couldn’t get back was stupid i see and realize i should have been more logical and not always live like it doesnt matter the girls have had a though few months with patties have to be put down i feel i should have been there for them.

Saying decide out loud

What we has a race of people decide to do now is very important well its always been important it just now has to count as we are running out of time to save all from not having the realization they should so see in this life. I feel like im making writing up as i got along here as in i can only see whats best for all and not the old mean self that is just hidden from view at thsi very moment i feel ive been kept in a positive vibe when writing to not see what im meant to see within my words its been cover up by my mind my mind is tryin got protect itself as best as possible it cant see that it has been wrong and it needs to let go.

I decide

Deciding fo the girls whats best for them t help them and worried am i helping or not with what they should do who they should become.

Sf

Does this definition support me no im not sure who i am within this word this morning like im lost in the mind i feel the mind is tricking me somehow thsi can’t be right who i am writing the morning feels to positive i am skeptical of my mind as it cant be trusted lol

Decide i decide

Decide

I decide who i am all the time i have complete control over all my decisions with confidence self love and love for all others

I will live this word with learning how to live in every moment how i live is very important when it comes to the decisions i make about myself and another i need out be within breath to breath my truths.